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Our Six Months Anniversary!

2012-02-06T08:54:00.000+08:00

Happy Six Months Deary!

Today is not just our Six Months and I having my exam later. Blogging this at his house when he left for work, as usual, he always says doesn't want to go work. Guess he did not have enough sleep.

30.01.12

The Comfortable Shawl that Deary bought for me at Vivo City!

5.02.12

Our Couple hand phone case bought at Queenway.

Anyway, i got to go study or taking a nap for awhile as my my exams is at 15:45 later. Ciao!

The 300th post

2012-01-28T06:14:00.001+08:00

As title mention above, it is my 300th post. Well, it suppose to be more than 300. Because this blog was created in 2008. I awake at bout 4 plus, play awhile on my handphone and a match of Dota and now started to blog as i couldn't sleep. As usual blogging with him by my side when he is sleeping. And this is ♥♥♥!

26 Jan 2012

At night when i was fallen sleep, i only want to see you when i awake. I don't like the feeling when i waking up and you are not around, even though you are at your living room watching tv and playing your handphone game. You are making me upset. Was crying and he knows, he comfort me not to cry and asking me why am i crying, and i was keeping silent and he says don't want to tell him? I pointed as him.

27 Jan 2012

Even though i was crying badly last night, i had a nice day. BJ went to get me food, for lunch. He send me to school at the evening. I'm glad i went to the class. Hopefully examinations is easy for me to pass. Have to Thanks to my Classmate, Eugene for helping me to mark attendance. And for the Good job for the assignment. He did it well! He and I scored an A and B for the assignment. I know i have to pray to God, for making me pass through. Thank you God! As usual, BJ came to fetch me after my class. He bought me my fav snack, Kuah Dar Dar from bagawan solo. He went to get his dinner at the boat quay. We headed to his house to have our meal. Have my shower and soon i sleep when he was watching his drama.

It been months i have moved back. I do miss my dogs! Especially Yozai. If, I'm not with BJ, I'm still alone, will i still be staying there? Hmmm, if i don't move out, i'm sure i gonna be stuck down there all the way. But, I'm sure and that is impossible because his sis, Germanine will not allow me to stay there.

Anyway i hope to receive a good news on Monday when i report to work. Hopefully i can go to other department soon. Ciao~

Photos up!

2012-01-26T10:58:00.004+08:00

My last was a upset post well but life go on.

24 Jan 2012

Went home by myself by bus so to let BJ sleep longer. BJ's Family were having their lunch, i told BJ will be eating outside, doesn't wanna let him know i go home 1st. Deary's father asked me to bring the 爱心餐 go home and Da jie asking me to bring back chicken wing to home. Deary's Mom send me out and asked, "You going home, he don't know ar"? I told her cos i tell him I'm eating outside, then she Laughed. By the time i reached home, it already 1pm. Had my meal at my own house. BJ called me when he awake and he is coming down to fetch me after he have prepared. We were going to visit his Aunt Bukit Batok. BJ's family were there already. She a nice person. At bout 6 plus, BJ's parents left, me and BJ left at 7 and Da jie and er jie were still there. Me and BJ went down to westwall since it nearby. Went to have my dinner at a place, BJ not eating as he had his Mcdonald earlier when he at his aunt house. After had my dinner went back to BJ's house. He had his dinner at home. After shower, i felt so tired, probably because did not have enough sleep.

25 Jan 2012

Waking up at 7.30 to prepare to work. BJ sending me to work and he says he doesn't wanna work as I'm on half day. Haha. Reached my workplace and i feel so sian as the time passes very slow. Finally it bout time i can knock off. Went home to my lunch and soon after i fell asleep. BJ came to fetch me after his work later. We went to redhill market to have our dinner. He takeaway satay home. BJ was having his satay at the living room while i was at his room watching my HK drama.

And Today I'm on leave. BJ doesn't want to wake up for work even though he already changed up. When i blogging at his house Haha.

Our CNY Photo!

Deary's Father says These Two Cute Doll like Us~

Stick Out

I know I'm Zhi lian~

19 Jan 2012

The specially hamper with loves!
Thank you my love and family, Daddy, Mummy, 大姐, and 二姐 for the effort packing it!
♥♥♥

The Last year Photos

24.12.11
Christmas present from love's 大姐 and 二姐

My Christmas Present From Deary

29.11.11

26.11.11

Consider our First photo.

20.11.11

My BFF, Max

6.11.11

Our 3rd Month and our First trip

15.09.11

RMPS dinner

14.09.11

My new company dinner

2.09.11

On my Cousin, Zhengwei's 18 Birthday. She is my cousin too, Glynis.

Farewell Gift from Kim

Farewell card from Kim

And the Gift

MY Farewell party @ RMPS!

Prepared from my dearest Nisaa, the Admin Manager.

From Nisaa

07.08.11
Just trying to act like a nerd with my 0 degree spec ♥

23.07.11

Shannon's Birthday.

Shannon, Me, BJ and Stacia.

They are BJ's Sisters!

My Birthday!

21.06.11
A small surprised celebration at my workplace with my colleagues.
The song singing "happy birthday"

21.06.11
A small surprised celebration at my workplace with my colleagues.
A gift from my sweet Nisaa. ((:

19.06.11
A celebration for my birthday and father's day!
Dinner with friends (Boy, Li Dan, GT and Beng) @ Mookata!

19.06.11
A celebration for my birthday and father's day!
Lastly @ Changi airport Swensen's with friends (Boy, Li Dan, GT and Beng) eating ice cream. No yam, ):
Thank q you guys! ((:

It took me more than two hours to blog...Omg. Ciao~

Why do i have to?

2012-01-24T11:46:00.000+08:00

Awake not too long ago. Yesterday was a kinda upset day. Anyway, shall update bout it.

23 Jan 2012

Left BJ's house at 9.30 after wishing his parents and went home to get myself changed up. After changing, BJ and I went down to temple to pray my grandpa. Saw my dad and his family. After the temple, BJ and I went down to Yishun , my granny's brother house. Did not continue to go with them after that as I need to go with BJ to his side. From Yishun went down to his uncle place at holland and to Havelock to visit his Grandpa. Saw his aunties and uncles. It was almost 7pm went back to BJ's house. Had "YU SHENG" with BJ's family and dinner at home. Went to shower after that as we later got to go down to Vivien's house. Took some photo with BJ, Shall post it soon. Took cab down with BJ and his sisters. We stayed there till 4 and took cab to go back to BJ's house. That was how it relate to the last post from here.

I'm still fighting myself with the spirit! It so hard as it past keeps on running through my mind. I'm wondering why did i mind bout it as it already the past. One thing, if i ask you something, i want to get an ANSWER. Stop giving me a circle and circle with little answer to entertain me. If you think, i will upset with it but, I'm the one to ask you! I know when i ask, I'm sure will upset with it, and who DOES NOT? Maybe I'm the only one who will feel that way.

Anyway, i have a stranger to visit my blog without tagging it.

Hey You!

What's important?

2012-01-24T05:16:00.000+08:00

I'm just back home to BJ's house after a long day. Had a shower, and again back to the same question. Had a cry out and a terrible fight with myself. Kept telling myself, it was the past. What's important is now, move on. If you know what's my feeling now, can you feel the pains? Crying now to type this now...Why does it so hard to tell me? It doesn't make sense at all even how well you treat me, how good you have been treating me. It does bring me to pains when the truth is out. Seriously, i really cannot take it. Do you know how hard it is when you fighting that kind of spirit to keep telling oneself move on and stop looking back? YOU DON'T KNOW AT ALL!

Happy 龙 Year 初一

2012-01-23T06:36:00.000+08:00

Right now the time is 6.22AM and I love to blog especially when i awake and cannot sleep and of cos having BJ sleeping next to me.

Well Let's us WELCOME 龙 Year, the Dragon!

22 Jan 2012

BJ and I went to have our reunion dinner at my place and after that we have our 2nd round of reunion dinner at his place.

23 Jan 2012

Today is 初一!

It's my First CNY with BJ! Everything with him started with the First Time, just like First Love~

Like the First time having an overseas trip with him to Batam to celebrate our 3rd Month Anniversary. Our First Christmas, Our First New Year and now our First CNY!

I'm not saying his my First Love but, everything with him is really like having First Love.

Okay, i shall stop here and continue when i have the time. I need to go for my shower soon and get ready to go temple later with BJ to pray my beloved Grandpa. Ciao!

revert to October

2012-01-22T11:14:00.001+08:00

Revert to October, I guess i left out something during in October. I have registered in MDIS for a course in Business Management. And the course was started in November. BJ was accompanied me to the school and i need to sit for an entry test for English and Maths. Back and fore i going back to the school for the tests and finally i passed! AK accompanied me to the school to pay the school fees as i need to go for laser for my wrist at orchard. Well, next month is my exam on the 6 and 10 Feb.

Yesterday, went to bukit merah central to do my eyelash perm. It was a heavy rain after i have my done my things. Told BJ I'm lazy to take bus and then he have to ride. We wear raincoat down to my Da Gu's house for reunion dinner. I don't know what to blog le ... Ciao!

The updates from September

2012-01-21T05:12:00.001+08:00

Hey guys, Sorry for putting my blog into private for the last few months. It was a long time since my last post till now. And well, I'm still alive and kicking! I have moved back to my own house since last year October. Reason for moving back it was because, Wilton's family know i have a boyfriend and it was his sister chased me out. (to be saying nicely, she was asking me to move out as it not really nice when i have a boyfriend.)

The moving back to home was feeling great. BJ was happy too! And maybe i should highlight from September till now.

September, I started my new job. I celebrated my cousin, Zheng Wei for his 18th birthday at St James, Mono.

October, It was the month that i have back to my own house. At first, there will be lots of misunderstanding between me and my mom and of cos till now I'm still working on it.

November, It was my first trip to Batam with BJ to celebrate our 3rd Month.

December, BJ bought me a necklace as Christmas gift from the SK!

Now, I'm not a God so i cannot remember the details so clearly.

Jan, Currently I'm at BJ's house blogging and he is sleeping next to me. I placed an order from Noel to send hamper to BJ and to my boss. Seriously, Noel is having difficulty to send the hamper on time. BJ bought hamper for my family too. All Bird nest new moon! He bought it and he wrapped it together with his sisters and mom.

As for AK, he have chosen to stop contact me and he even returned his things to me. Anyway, take care man!

And till date, I'm still keeping my blog to alive ya. Ciao~!

August

2012-01-21T04:43:00.000+08:00

1st August

BJ came to fetch after my work. He just wanna send me home and that all, make me thinking he will come to meet me after that. Was not happy and so went to downstairs at the nearby shell at the 7-11 bought an ice-cream to eat. After eating walk up and still not feeling good. This was the least i can do to cheer myself up.

2nd August

Was meeting with BJ at night and i cannot remember where we been to.

3rd August

BJ was meeting me quite late as he was having dinner with his colleagues. He came around 11pm.

4 August

It was pouring heavily in the morning while i was on my way to work. Meet up with BJ and we went to Henderson wave and i showed him where is 3:72. We were lying there and enjoyed chatting.

5 August

I was Whatapps-ing with BJ at night. He was telling me his sis, Shannon is missing me. And he pop up the Q to asking me to join him to go to Connie's Birthday. Meet up with BJ on bus 195 and saw Kah Kit on the bus and i did not realised at all. We were going to Titanium for Connie's Birthday. We both were black. Saw them, Shannon, Vivian, Sandy and Karen. And the rest of Connie's Friends. Vivian was asking us a personal Q, have you two been together yet? I told her no and when she saw i was holding on the BJ hand, she was like, like that not consider together. Haha. There was a guy who i was playing dice with and BJ was afraid i might drunk so he was sitting beside me to guard. Before reaching there, BJ told me, not to be hero again for helping people to drink. By the time, Stacia was here when BJ went down to fetch her. So that guy was drunk cos when i went to ladies and saw him came out so we chat and he kissed me on my cheek, i was like eeee and told BJ. BJ was like, what he kissed you. So i was quite close to a girl and i have forgot what her name. We were going down to dance, but end up went up because no song we like. And so the drunk guy, he was very near me when i was sitting beside Stacia. He was like hugging me and BJ came over to sit with me. Connie is leaving and ... they are going home. And i don't wanna go home and so, me and BJ were sitting at the Esplanade there till 7am. We were waiting for sunrise and we went to Tiong Bahru market there to have our breakfast. We had "zui gui" and i had one more peanut porridge and he had a ice black coffee no sugar. We went back home after that. And, we started just like that. Back home, i bathe and sleeping around 9 plus and awake at 11am and back to sleep around 1 plus and awake at 3 plus.

6 August

BJ came to meet me around 11pm and we went to East Coast and i was so sleepy. So went home around 1 plus.

7 August

I took a bus to find BJ at his house area, Depot road. We walked to Henderson Wave to sit there to relax. While going home, he told me a tv show. What did 30 , 40 and 50 guys will be going for a GF and how to treat like a GF. He says no matter what, he will hold my hand not like the 30 who will just ignore his gf and walk on his own. He send me home with bus 195 and poor him have to walk home all the way from Havelock to Depot.

8 August

Meeting with BJ and we went to Plaza Singapura and we were catching a movie at 23:40, "Zookeeper". While waiting we went over to istana park and we were sitting there. I did pop up a Q to him to ask, What are we now? He says He is my BF. After the movie ended, we went to get "dao hui" and we were eating at Esplanade. And he was busy message awhile and he stop when he saw i was kinda moody. He doesn't know what the reason why i will like that. So we changed place to Henderson Wave. There were so people so we can't sit at our usual spot of 3:72. We were sitting at one side. We were kissing and hugging there. He was wondering why i was so moody. Got home around 4 plus and i was sleeping around 5 plus after my bath.

9 Aug

It National Day.

I was so so so like a cry baby. Been upset for the whole day. And asking myself a Q, why do i need to feel insecure for. Meeting up with BJ at 9pm and we went to Mount faber. He was worried for me that i have been upset. I asked him, is he serious with me, and he says yes. I asked why, he cannot ans cos been serious there is no why. Unless it not serious can have a reason. I did telling him about AK's fren. This guy is having two GF and bla bla, he was like asking how come suddenly i will tell him. I just says oh, just tot of it so say lo.

I was feeling strange, i never ask, is he the one for me? I was wondering and why. I feel like he is not serious being with me. I feel like, he has another girl. He used to sleep whole day and now he getting up early. Isn't strange? Maybe I'm too sensitive. To me, i don feel BJ is serious. I don feel he is missing me. I don feel. My heart will never feel that way.

10 August

At night, BJ came to find me when i told him i wanna eat ice cream. We were chatting and i saw Eugene so send him a message asking, is he in green. And it was him when he replied. And i was upset with BJ because when his phone was ringing, he says he was at bukit ho swee and meeting his friend. When actually i was just beside him smoking. So I'm just a Friend to BJ. Knowing he will need to go to meet his friends i just finish smoking so tell him, i going up.

He does not know i was actually upset about him. When he message me to tell me he was meeting with Anslem and Vincent and queenway there to chat. I totally upset and so my messgae was not well. I switched off my phone and went to sleep.

11 August

I switched on my phone in the morning. He message saying Sorry. I did not reply till when i was on the bus and then reply him saying im not angry with him. I acutally wanted to tell him but i was upset with you. In fact, while walking to the bus stop, i received some missed called alert message at different timing. So i told Kim and she says i should let BJ know about it. At night, BJ came to find me and we went to labodor park there to sit. Poor him for not sleeping for the whole night. And i told him about it. And he was sorry for that. And, he was saying, at 2013 or 2014, he has something to do which is getting married. Guess we have to work harder to make things work for us. I'm sure we can! As for his reason why he did not tell them I'm his gf because i told him i wanna stay as this way, and i straight says, i tot on the 8 of August, you have tell me what are we. Haha, from then he keeps on saying sorry ... for making me so upset bout it. Love Him!!!

12 August

It was a upset night. I went to Cheng Siong's grandfather furneral with Qixian and his gf, meishan. Upset was because, whenever i wanna see him, he always not around. When he wanna see me, he can just pop as and when he like. Spoken to him on the phone around 4 plus in the morning. He went to drink with his friends after their praying. Seems like he doesn't wanna me to join.

13 August

It a Saturday and i was meeting BJ. We were suppose to meet at 8pm, he was late for 55mins. We went to esplanade to chat and i asked how come he was late so he says he was meeting his colleague earlier on. On e dot of 8pm he sms me will be late. If cannot make it then don meet la. Make my heart so upset bout it. BJ asked, so when is our starting date? I was like oh ... does it important? So he says like that we can have celebrate our Anniversary. HAHA. So after that, his sis, shannon was asking us to join them for drink at near chinatown. He went back home to park his bike at his house there. After that we went down by bus. Saw his both sisters and their friends. After that, the pub is closing, so we went to St James, the mono. Was having so much fun la. After that, we went eating at the nearby food stall. We were "Ba chow mee", Stacia was not eating. So we feeding her to eat. So there was this table who was beside to us, this guy, idk is he looking at me or is he looking at shannon. He was like trying to seek my attention. Cos they were eating and this guy mention, the gal not scare fat to eat u guys are, so i laugh la. Then Shannon know, she tell BJ. So BJ was like sitting over to block him. HAHA. Then Stacia says, tell him we need 5 cups of sugar cans drink, i was like huh, here where to get wor.. After finish eating, guess the guy know BJ is my bf. HAHA. Cos we holding hand when leaving. BJ send me home with cab and send me up to my floor. He wanna see me safely reaching home to see me open the door then he willing to go. And i was so tired, reaching home, went to sleep straight.

14 August

Awake around 9 plus in the morning. Get up and preparing to cook porridge. Done it within 2 hours time. Meet BJ at night. We went to the Henderson Wave. He ate my cooking porridge and he finish it all. Wilton was making noise that BJ is so xinful that i cooked porridge for BJ. HAHA.

15 August

Had a little not happy with BJ because of a word in his SMS, "Gal". Gal can be calling other people girl de ma. Was waiting for BJ at downstairs, i called Ethan cos he called me earlier when i was bout to bathe. Ethan was wondering how come i will togther with BJ and so on... When BJ came, i put down the phone with ethan and we went to Marina Barrage. He wanted me to tell him when I'm upset, when I'm down, when I'm emo. He want me to have faith and trust on him. He want me to be confident in him and i told him i can't. Reaching home, we always chat in Whatapps ma. He wanted me to sleep 1st then he going to sleep. He wanted to accompany me when i cannot sleep and to be there when i need him. Isn't he is sweet?

16 August

Today is Qi Shen's Birthday, did send him wishes last night to wish him. This morning when i was in the bus on the way to work, i was thinking, how come BJ and me were so fast get together? Hmmm, and i don't know why i will have this kind of thought. Maybe because suddenly i will get into relationship. Should i tell BJ to let him know?

I'm so blessed that, coming thursday i will be attending two interview. And the location it so neatby. I gotta thx God for creating this small chance for me. Hopefully, i can have the job if here is not going to to renew my contract.

BJ told me he will be go out with is colleague for photo taking coming this Friday after i telling him i be busy this thurday. So, i message Jun and Wilson coming Friday to go out for drink. BJ doesn't sense anything which is not right. Well, he have his own life with friends, i got mine too.

BJ was coming to pick me after work and we went to chin swee s-11 to have our dinner and then we were sitting at my downstairs to chat. And i was down with cold again. Back home eat medicine and bathe. Had a liitle upset with BJ again cos he replied late la. It me who always like that. Always Wu li qu nao. Sooner he cannot bear with me anymore soon.

17 August

BJ was upset because of me. Because i am upset so that make him upset too. BJ came to meet me at night after his work. We were at my house downstairs where the place we always sit at. Before meeting him, i already had medicine. So i feel a little drowsy. He came around 2145 and he left around 2250. Though is just an hour of meet up, short and sweet. He actaully wanna fetch me after my interview. But i rejected him. I fallen asleep around 23.30 when i was still chatting with him with whatapps.

18 August

Today i will be attending two interview straight after my work end at 1630. Hopefully both went well for me. Hope everything is fine and May God bless me with a lucky star to keep by my side so that i can shine to the person who is interviewing me. Nisaa and Raja were saying today i wore pro. I was like okes, good to hear that. Hope everything goes well for me. Rachel saw me and she says i wore smartly. Good. After work, took bus down to bugis to have my 1st interview with the Child care centre, on way there i actually having full of confident that she will hire me. And yes, the principal is actually giving me a chance. Because i have 2nd interview with Times company so would like to see which one is better. Went to times straight after the 1st interview ended. And Times company is hiring me too. I'm so blessed. Both did went smoothly and i msg BJ to tell him the good news. Called Wilton to tell him also. Took bus and alighted near Tiong bahru Market to buy something. And took bus home. While on my down to tiong bahru, i was actually message with Kim to tell her the good news. She shared with me how BJ will feel like. If not kim, i wouldn't know BJ is feeling upset because he can't be there for me and so on not because what i did. When BJ was actually having dinner with his colleague and i don wanna disturb his dinner so i did not have chance to tell him.

19 August

Was telling Nisaa that i be leaving and my last would be on the 25th August. I called Times, and told Charles that i would to join his company and will start with effect on the 1st september. I still did not have chance to tell BJ and now was deciding should i go drink at night with Jun or not. BJ he is so busy to reply my message. He told me he went cycling. Which mean he not working today? As he did telling me that he will go photo taking with his colleague today but he din mention he not working leh. He can bother to reply other people message but did not bother to reply mine. I was like feeling kind of disappointed can! When i wanted to open that barrier over it, End up you will be closing the barrier for me. Hey Thank you la.! Just a reply wont take you so long right? Ya, I'm Wu li qu nao again lo. Take it or leave it. This is ME! ANGRY! Ya, ur last reply was talk to me later, i wont be taking too long of time when you need to reply ya? Did you mention you are not working? Did my eyes did not see it clearly that you did mention in the message? Just when i needed you, you are not around. Satan, You susceed for getting this. I warn you Stop letting my heart to have this feeling! Get Lost SATAN! It was YOU SATAN that making me losing faith for BJ. If you wanna do that BJ, don say i never warn you. I DID WARN YOU! LOOK!!!

BJ was not working, he was with his colleagues to go pular ubin to photo shoot. At night BJ came to meet me despite how tired he was. And i did telling him when he finally message me earlier. I told him I was upset for him took so long to reply me message. And i told him, I will trust him and have faith on him. I told him not to lie to me because there is no return if he does. So we went to esplanade there to sit and chat. Went back early because we both were tired.

20 August

Meet up with BJ at 11 plus and we went to meet his Sis, Shannon at the usual place, Chat room. After that, went down to Neverland. I was having my fun, dancing my way. BJ went down to get me sweet. When he was away, there was a guy took my cig away when i was bout to light my cig. I thought he want to have one so i bout to take another one out but he reutrn to me...I was like huh la when he did that. When BJ was back and when he wanna go smoke with edwin, Shannon stop him from going to smoke. I guess she don want the guy to get near me ... After that we went back, BJ send his sis, shannon back 1st and after that we went to eat Mcdonald Breakfast at TBP. I was having SME meal with hot milo. BJ did not eat, but we shared the meal. He send me home. At 1st i wanna go to get myself but he doesn't want, he wanna accompany me... He sweet enough. I reached around 7. I did not bathe as i was too tired and went to sleep.

21 August

Waking up around 9.30 cos i received phone call from my aunty pauline. Sleep back another hour, and waking up at 10 plus. Get up and dilly dally and wash up and ready to go down to visit grandparents. Was eating a lots ... curry chicken, chicken wings. Announced BJ to them, telling them i actually broke up with Wilton for 3years and i just started with BJ. When they know, my aunty pauline was like saying it so complicated. .. as in because they know each other ... Went back around 6 and i was very tired cos i was having little sleep. Wash up and went to TBP because i wanna get nose stud. BJ message me after his dinner. I told him i was at TBP so he came down to look for me. Then we went to esplanade there to sit and chat. Reaching home around 12. I went to bathe as I'm too sticky but i did not wash my hair cos don wanna blow dry my hair at late hour. Chat with BJ in whatapps. And was angry with him because he mia from message. So he was telling me he was hungry so went to cook noodles to eat. Telling me not to get angry. I got short temper de. Was it so hard to say he is hungry or okes la maybe he doesnt wanna let me know.

22 August

This morning i replied him say not angry anymore as i says i have forgive him le ma. I be going to an interview this Thursday. This was recommand by Candy, for me i will of cos prefer Candy's than the one in Times. Maybe i feel is better? As she says, free breakfast and lunch and most of all, can free entrance to Universe Studio. Meeting BJ at night and he came to look for me at 11pm after he had his dinner with his colleagues.

23 August

When i was working, I was messaging with Jun and Wilson, Vincent and also Max. Was inviting them to Zheng Wei's 18th Birthday celebration at St James, Mono. They will let me know. Then i started to tell BJ, why i will say he will message other people and reply message to other people, because of the status and the last seen. BJ telling me maybe he was busy that why he never reply my message after reading it. Forget it ba. Since he like that i have no more to say liao. Kim was so sweet enough to give me a present and it expensive. It from the precious moment, the two little angel of boy and girl. BJ was so sweet that he called me when i was waiting my bus to go home. Love the way he call me when he call me dear on the phone. Meet BJ at 9 plus and we went to Marina Barrage.

24 August

Have to forgo the interview that was suppose to go on Thursday as the Manager is not available. My last day is on Thursday. Nisaa send an email out to let the staff know that i will be leaving on this Thursday. i got Wishes from the Principal, Mrs Wong, teachers, Mrs Hum, Mrs Cheong, Mdm Dawn Siok, Mrs Anba. To some teachers asking like Mdm Lau Wai Ping and Emily. BJ wanna fetch me after my work but due to my bag, it too heavy so i rejected him. My things too much need two days to clear. LOL. I did not meet BJ as he fallen asleep. So i knew it. I did not have any Hu Shi Ruan Xiang. Watching drama and Youtub-ing. Went to sleep around 12 like that.

25 August

BJ message me at 7 to let me know he was so tired and fallen asleep till then awake. I actually asked God, what reaction when i received his sms? I did not angry or did not unhappy or anything. I just read without unlock my phone and leave it to prepare myself for work. When i was in the bus i was thinking how come i do not have uneasy feeling. Could it be because i have willing to trust him with my fatih on him? So i won't be going for the interview as Desiree says asked me to go ahead with my new company.

Well, today is my last day at RMPS. Feel like i have graduated from here. Hopefully everything went smoothly at my new workplace. I'm sure will be Because God is always with me, with his blessing i will and i can.

I got more wishes from people, Like the Security Guard, Mr Wong. The senior teacher, Ms Doreen Ong. The OSO, Sundry. I got a small of veg from Ah yee at Stall six. The Hod Chinese, Mrs Tan Khim Yong. Also not forgeting, my office, Mdm Wendy Gwee, Mrs Raja, Mdm Salmah, Ms Siew ling, Mdm Nisaa, CCPE Yong Sheng, OM Mr Tan and VP, Mdm Shanthi. From Teachers, Mrs Low lay lay, Mr Lee Kar Leong, my old teacher from Membina, Mrs Tham, Chinese teacher, Mr Chong Wee Sing. Kim came in the office to give me a hug. How sweet is she ... (:

I had a farewell lunch prepared by Mdm Nisaa. She ordered the food from Stall 8. She got me a Sunflower. A necklace and a very Big Card like an A3. She went to get signatures from some of the teachers. It a wonderful farewell for me. I'm sure i gonna miss them. We taking photos during the lunch.

Meeting BJ very early around 8 plus. But he wanna park his bike at his house there as he afraid might raining. So back to his house there den we took a bus from his house there. Suppose to take 57 to reach vivo but he took 175 and it a wrong bus. While walking to the bus stop, he had a phone in and it was his colleague called him regarding job thingy. I thought at 1st he called her sweetie leh but her name is Sugie. And we walked from the wrong bus stop to vivo and we sat there for awhile and bout 22:30 leave the place and walk to the bus stop and took bus 131. Changed bus and we took bus 123 to go home. He wanna send me home 1st. When he reach home around 12, we char awhile and i dozed off around 12.30.

26 August

Was waking up early and posted my farewell photo up to the FB. Around 10plus prepared myself to go out to do hair dye at kenny there. They were late so i went to do my Dian eyelashes. After that went to 7-11 to get my milk as i was too hungry. My hair done and kenny charged me $70. And i went to have my foot massage. After that went to CK buy some things and went to NTUC to get milk. And headed home. BJ is at his colleague's relative funeral @ Chua Chu Kang. Like so far meh? From Bugis there travel there need to take an hour meh? Or he doesn't know where is the exact location? Go down to a funeral need a whole night meh? Unless play majong then i got nothing to say. BJ tot of meeting me but i din want as he was tired after a long day. He did called me when he has reached home. We chatted for half an hour like that then went to sleep after that.

27 August

I was throwing my temper all around as Wilton does not want to go JB. He did bring me to JB to get my clothes and my shoes for work. Meeting BJ at night after the voting of the president 2011. Meet him at my own house bus stop. We went down to Orchard to look for his 2nd Sis. Later went to look for Shannon. We went to walk around at cini leisure. I bought salad from pasta mania. He had his dinner packed from Shannon. So went to sit istana park to have our dinner. After that we went to Liang Court to join his 2nd sis for Karaoke and her friends at Party World. After that went home. As BJ send me up and i went down again by myself. I don wanna be home so early. So i was at downstairs smoking.

28 August

Waking up around 11 am. So getting up and wash up and called grandma to tell her i be coming down to look for her. Went to take Mrt and went to kallang and take bus down to Geylang Bahru. Meet BJ at Tiong Bahru Plaza to have our dinner at the Food Court. He need to go for some burning at Henderson. Meet him later around 11 pm and we went to cini leisure to catch a movie, The Final Destination 5. We watched at 1:20. After the movie, we went to have our supper - breakfast at Chang Cheng porridge at 3 AM. I think i saw the guy again while we were eating. That guy that i saw him at Neverland. After eating we went home.

29 August

Waking up around 1pm. Meeting BJ at night. We went to bugis and he bought me Tako to eat and we went to have dessert at dessert first. He was so sweet feeding me the waffles. After we went to sit at esplanade. Head home.

30 August

Cannot remember but i did meet BJ at night. Was not pleased with BJ after reaching home when we were whatapps.

31 August

Went to Bukit Merah central. To buy my facial stuff and bought a steamer for iron clothes. Meet BJ at night and we went to near liang court there to sit and chat for awhile. Head home.

My whole July

2011-08-01T12:26:00.002+08:00

It been exactly a month since i have blog. I was having high fever since 1st July and went to see doctor by myself. Was given MC from 5 July to 7 July. My 1st time to see my fever can hit till 39.7.

And on 9 July, Went out with them to Firefly to celebrate PanJian's birthday. And this is story started between me and Boon Jiat. It was actually me, who told him to lets try out and after that whole night i was drunk and did something which i did not know at all. I only know i was been sticking him to here and there.

10 July, Wilton was angry for me drunk and he angry that I went out with Boon Jiat. I was meeting him at Tiong Bahru Plaza at 4pm and went to eat at Tiong Bahru Market. He was eating Lor Mee and i was only drink Rebena as i do not have appetite to eat. After that, we went to bugis to walk and bought movie tickets. The show is starting at 7.30 pm. And the show is "Highness". We were watching it at ILuma. Before watching, we walked over to opp of bugis to have dessert at "Tang Shui Xian". After the movie, we walked from bugis to Chinatown to have our late dinner at Chang Cheng Porridge. After that we took bus to went home. I never thought we will be going out after our lunch. Well, it turn to be a date. Yes it was a date with him.

13 July, AK has return safely and thx God for his blessing. I actually took a leave to went to airport to fetch him. I came to Purmei here to bought 4 packets of Lor mee for him and his family. And after that straight down to airport. I actually doesn't want to fetch him but i need an answer that why i went to fetch him. I saw his family waited at the airport. We were chatting too. Finally AK came out, i went with his Family to have lunch and his mom invited me to AK's grandfather house. I was quite surprised because AK mention his mom did not even ask his ex gf, jean to come before. AK was verbally propose to me but i was pretending. After that went home.

16 July, I went out myself to esplanade and was stayed there for an hour. And i deciede to walk home from esplanade. And i did it by walking home. haha.

17 July, I went out to Great World City to meet my clan mates, Aaron, Emerson, Kelvin and Qingwen. It was my 1st time to meet with the 3 of them, i have met Emerson earlier. We were just having a lunch. After that i did not want to go home and so i went down to my own house to visit my grandparents. And i was waiting for something to happen. I meeting Boon Jiat at my own house bus stop and we went to Marina Square to have dinner @ Sakae Sushi. I was having a chawanmushi and a bowl of salad. After our dinner we went to esplanade there to sit and chat. And again we walked, and he walked with me home.

18 July, I meet with Boon Jiat after my work and he came to pick me. He was riding to fetch me. And my 1st time to sit on his bike. We went to east coast to relax and enjoying the moment there. After that went to boat quay to buy drink and continue to sit and chat. It was actually went there to have dinner, end up i did not eat. He send me home. It was so late by the time i have reached home. I slept around 3 plus in the morning. My tuesday was a very tiring day.

19 and 20 July, These two evening, Wilton came to fetch me home. I was quite upset with him because i don like at all.

21 July, I cannot remember.

22 July, Meet up with boon Jiat at Bukit Merah Central. We had Dinner together at henderson with Anslem. Later Wei Jie and Poh Seng joined us. After they went to play basketball. We were chatting. After that, me and boon Jiat went to Henderson wave. We were sitting at 3:56. Our spot.

23 July

Boon jiat has been telling me bout his Da jie's birthday party since last week. He wanna me to go. So, he came over at the bus stop and we went together to bugis. Hey, his Da jie, Shannon and Er jie Stacia. They are so pretty and look so sweet. I have my fun and i was drunk and boon jiat send me home with seeing me vomitting. They have their colleagues and friends over there so when they saw me, they thought i am his gf. Especially Shannon, i remember she kept saying, she like me a lots... and we did took a photo and stacia says, Yi jia ren photo. While was seeing shannon and her group of friends taking photos, and it my turn and i heard, this is a must to have a photo with me cos is important.

24 July

A moody Sunday and i went to hendserson wave by myself at around 7 plus after my dinner. Took a bus 195 to go there, walked up the stairs and reaching around 8 plus. Sitting there few hours. Was crying and feeling so badly while actually waited Boon Jiat to reply my sms. By the time he replied, it already 10 plus. He thought i was at esplanade so he went there to look for me. He ask me to wait for him to come so that he can send me home. How sweet is him.

25 July

A night meet out with Boon Jiat, he knew i was unhappy so he wanna to bring me out for walk walk. He was so sweet when we reached the place. He touch my face asking how come i was crying.

26 July

I received Sunflowers at work from AK because he saw i posted on FB that i was so unhappy. Boon Jiat came to pick me after my work and we had dinner at Maxwell having fish soup. After that, we went to vivo.

27 July

It was a bad day. Raining heavily on the way to work. Caught in the rain while walking to the school. My fav heels spoiled because the glue came off. Was so unhappy with boon jiat. )): He saw my msg to him was i going to sleep and he called. He was surprised that i turning to bed so soon. I was unhappy with him because, im throwing my tantrum...

28 July

Meet up with Boon Jiat at night to near Sentosa.

29 July

Meet up with him and we went to east coast. We were suppose to have prawn fishing. End up we were sitting down and enjoying the breeze.

30 July

Went out with Wilton to JB and buy lots of shoes. Did not meet Boon Jiat, he was having his gathering with his Ex colleagues. Am sad because, he did not ask me along.

31 July

Meet up with boon Jiat, he came to fetch me, when we both saw each other, we laughed cos we wore the same colour "Orange", and he get me a soft toy, Smurf. I was surprised. We were having dinner at Raja Inn at Tiong bahru plaza. I had too much and after that i bought my fav yogurt, for him and for myself. went to esplanade to sit there chatting and enjoy happily.

My heart having a weird feeling. Somehow i felt my heart is controlling my mind. A sharp pains.

My 25th Birthday and A father's Day celebration.

2011-06-21T12:47:00.000+08:00

I have change my blog to private. I'm sick of those Stalkers. Especially to AK and of cause to others. I was on leave last thursday and friday and yesterday.

I went for an interview on last Friday. To my surprised, AK send sunflowers and cheese cake to me while i was away. It was for my birthday. I have to collect it after my interview. Took cab down to collect.

I went back to my own house on Sunday. It was my birthday and it also Father's day. After that, meeting with GT, beng, boy and Lidan to have dinner and after dinner went to changi airport swensen's. It was a not so bad for my 25th Birthday.

BC and her started, hopefully she is the one for him and wishing them last long. When i was in BC's car, i noticed BC was looking at me a few times. What is actually BC is thinking? Was it me too native to believe his words? What was i thinking? How can i repeat my mistakes by trusting a guy's words? BC isn't true to me at all. I don't think i will make my blog to public so soon or will not be public anymore. I wanna blog to myself without other people to know.

Am i so bad? In which area I'm lagging of to her? What am i thinking? Before this, i was thinking AK. I wanna tell him, i wanna be with him but i did not.

I got a bad news form Ethan. He was telling me beeyan has hire someone else. I'm sad cause i tot i can leave here and work have a chance to work in other place. i actually knew it when the interview end. Feeling not so good now. Why am i so failure?

I wish to receive Good news not Bad news. Can i add a new wish for my birthday? I wish i can leave here and work in a better places. I wish i can, move back to my own house and stay. I wanna cry.

Thanks God for being with me and cheering me up with your signs. ((:

Snap Snap Snap at Lunar and Boiler~

2011-06-04T10:22:00.001+08:00

With Elsie, Huiling and Cyndi.

With Gerald and Huiling.

With Stevvy and Huiling

With Colin, band of lunar.

With Peishan, Vincent and Huiling.

With Gerald.

With Peishan.

With Huiling.

With Elsie.

Wtih Cyndi, Dawn and Elsie.

With Dawn, Peishan and Cyndi.

With Cyndi, Huiling, Elsie, Dawn and Peishan.

With Colin, band of lunar.

With Peishan.

With Elsie and Cyndi.

With Peishan and Vincent.

With Dawn, Peishan, Elsie, Cyndi and Huiling.


With Peishan, Cyndi, Elsie, Joy and a guy at Boiler.

You are playing with a Player~

2011-06-04T09:41:00.003+08:00

Kato - The Joker

You make an entrance like you got it all
You got a swagger and you're walking tall
Yeah, I know your type
You're the king of night
But I've seen your name on the wall
I can read you baby like a book
You think you got me -with just one look
So the game has begun
Think you've already won
But I'm not gonna fall for your charm
You're certain and sure
You've done it before
The golden ticket's yours
You're running the show

But what I wanna know is -
don't it make you heart ache?

Na-a-oh Time to place your bet
Na-a-oh The cards haven't bin dealt yet
Na-a-oh You telling me that I am your queen
Na-a-oh But you are just a joker to me!

Sitting pretty with a drink in your hand
You scope the room like you've got a plan
Don't play by the rules
You pick and you choose
Waitin' for the ladies to swoon
It's private members and you've got a card
And all the door men know who you are
Jumping the queue
Eyes following you
I can tell this is nothing new
I've seen it before
So self-assured
But you're just full of talk
You'll end up alone

Coz I just know
It's gotta make your heart ache

Na-a-oh Time to place your bet
Na-a-oh The cards haven't bin dealt yet
Na-a-oh You telling me that I am your queen
Na-a-oh But you are just a joker to me!

You are nothing but a joker to me!

A message for AK

2011-06-01T16:59:00.000+08:00

AK, there are so many words i wanna tell you. I wanna tell you when the time is right. Being not able to tell you I'm feeling very bad. I do not want to tell you because i know myself that i can't promise anything to you and i know i can't commit at all.

I do not want to tell you because i do not want to let you feel that my words are fake. Can you imagine, if i tell you I Love You and if i did something wrong, does it make you feel even hurt?

Nvm, i don't wanna continue at all. You can't seem to get into your head. Most my words have already letting you know. You always put it as its okes, doesn't matter, so long being with you.

I repeat one last time, I want my heart to have you totally. If my heart cannot have you at all, i will not tell you anything that i need to say. If you wanna push, go ahead. You are making me drift apart more and more ...

I guess you have forgotten one thing, for all the mistakes you have done, you have been repeating. So why do you promise in the first place? Just Like my blog, you promise won't Question me anything whatever i have blog.

Flash back to February

2011-06-01T09:57:00.001+08:00

A sudden thought to flash back to February.

It was CNY-Day One.

I was with my Father's side to went to temple to pray my Grandpa.

I'm missing my dad.

Because ever since my Grandpa passed away in Feb 2008, I did not see him at all.

Because my dad quarrelled with my uncle and aunties.

After 3 years, i saw him at the temple.

He was with his family praying for his father-in-law.

My so called mom's dad passed away.

Dad, do u know all these while, I'm missing you? I try to call your house but your line was cut off. You did not even contact me and you have moved. I never though i will be seeing you again till that day. I was quite upset because when you saw me, you sounded angry. You seem like not happy to see me at all. It was so painful to hear that from you. My brother and my both sisters, they have grown so much. I was happy to see you again because I love you more than mom.

Flashing back isn't a good thing, shall end. Ciao~

I'm not a Back up!

2011-05-25T20:32:00.003+08:00

Today is my colleague's bdae.
At around 11am, i went to tbp to buy cake and some chicken pie.

Now,
I gonna throw words to my blog.

Sorry my dearie blog.

I do not know where to start from.

I do not feel good at all.

Am i just too nice or am i too friendly? Cause everything I'm gonna say never mind. Am i a back-up to you? To me, I enjoyed myself with you guys. Please don't use me for anything.

You told me, you turn over because of my situation now. You told me you prefer me more than her because you loves girls who are friendly. You prefer me cause you feel much comfortable than me. You told me your real target was actually is me. You told me you does not know what to do. You told me to give you some time so that you can make clear with her.

So, now are all pack of lies?

I don't voice out does not mean i don't mind. I want peace. You are using me. Because she ignoring you, you decided to date me. We were suppose to meet today but i cancelled the meeting because you hint me to cancel. And also because I'm tired as I'm sick.

I was happy that you came to my house downstairs just to give me flu medicine and Ju Hua Cha. But you added, just nice she is sick too so on the way. End up, you told me you are meeting her before you left.

I'm not saying i have feeling for you. I'm wondering, why am i the back-up? Just because you treat me more than friend?

许哲佩 - 气球

黑的白的红的黄的
紫的绿的蓝的灰的
你的我的他的她的
大的小的圆的扁的
好的坏的美的丑的
新的旧的各种款式各种花色任你选择
黑的白的红的黄的
紫的绿的蓝的灰的
你的我的他的她的
大的小的圆的扁的
好的坏的美的丑的
新的旧的各种款式各种花色任我选择
飞的高高越远越好
剪断了线它就死掉
寿命短短高兴就好
喜欢就好没大不了
越变越小越来越小
快要死掉也很骄傲
你不想说就别再说
我不想听不想再听
就把一切誓言当作汽球一般随它而去
我不在意不会在意放它而去随它而去
气球
飘进云里
飘进风里
结束生命
气球
飘进爱里
飘进心里
慢慢死去

all i wanna is be HAPPY~

2011-05-22T17:53:00.000+08:00

It been very long time for not updating my blog.

Wanna post some pictures ....

With my Brother Jun outside Raining Bar.

Snap this at Lunar.

With Vincent.

Brian and Huiling

Sparks Party.

With Wilson.

The three of us at Zirca. Wilson and Max.

I don't what to blog cos i kinda speechless. Okes, i know am lazy to blog.

Anthony have been there for 40 days. Since last month, 11.04.11.

I hope he is safe and sound over there and be back on time.

I was surprising over these few days, there are people actually came to my blog and I wondering who are you guys without tagging me and left. Wasn't my pop up message clear to you? Tag and comment before you leave ya?

Hmmm, my birthday will be around at the corner. Just next month i will turn 25.

Anyway, if you reading it, kindly tag before you leave. I'm not gonna to blog anything as i too lazy to type. >.< As all my feeling wasn't good at all. I don't want my blog turn into rubbish bin. I love my blog so therefore, i wanna post things which are HAPPY!

Ciao~

A message

2011-04-07T17:53:00.000+08:00

If i was the one to fall in love with you but i went out to drinks & dance with the guys & know more guys.

I tell u I only treating them as FRIENDS, how does u feel?

As i mentioned, if i loves someone i will not haVe the intention to know more guys.

Because no one can replace the one i loves.

It not bout whether you haVe the right to know more people or not. It a promise to show me how different you are with the rest.
I'm too disappointed in U.

2011-01-27T15:23:00.000+08:00

This month I'm so broke. Spend so much of getting new clothes for CNY. Not just new clothes but also went for hair dye, doing medi and pedi. And other stuffs la. All money money and money. Broke again. zzz. Poor me always around this corner i will be so broke. haha!

24 Jan 2011, Saturday

Morning went in JB with Zephkiel and we were so rushing cos i got a reunion dinner in the evening.

Not a really good reunion dinner at all as go everywhere also the same problem, MONEY! Sigh.

At night meet up Jason for drink. Finally finish the bottle.

Then i left myself to home, and chatted on phone with Ethan.

1st time we talk on the phone and we chatted so long, it about 1.5hours.

We chatted end around 6.30 in the morning and i have a short sleep and waking around 9am.

25 Jan 2011, Sunday

Went in to JB with Zephkiel again.

Also a rush time.

At the evening, we bring our dogs to Paris Ris there.

To let them run.

So tiring of me.

Had dinner at home and after that bathe my dogs.

26 Jan 2011, Monday

I feel so sleepy. Went to early lunch at 12pm and sleep. (:

And at night, went to JB again with Zephkiel. Haha.

Reach home bathe and sleep around 1am.

Today is Thursday.

The days to CNY is getting nearer and nearer.

Hope i can collect more red packets to cover my spend.

CIAO~

Wave

2011-01-20T16:01:00.000+08:00

19 Jan 2011, Thursday
Last night went to meet TH. And we had our dinner at Tbp, foodcourt.
We headed to a place call "Wave".
It is a nice place for emo-ing.
Cooling and relaxing.
I might going there myself if I'm emo again. We chatted our things and it been so long since i last met him.
I guess two years for not seeing him.

CNY is getting near, and i still have not get my new year clothes yet.
Broke.
End.

OUT OUT OUT!!!

2011-01-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

So fast it Thursday!

How i wish i can move out soon!

I don't to stay here facing the CRAZY woman!

I have never like her a single bit at all, is not AT ALL!

She is always like to be so KPO and to say people.

Whenever i remember God's words, i always feel so sinful. ARGH, God please save me out from here asap, please? I need my private life. I just need my Yozai to be with me. I will only bring him out when I'm moving out.

Pardon me God.

I'm homeless

2011-01-09T11:12:00.000+08:00

Cried last night. His sis is chasing me out of the house. I got nowhere to go. Seriously i don have. I have never blog anything ever since his sis back from her studies.

His sis always make difficult for me and always use the word of "Stranger". I have been tolerate with her and never want to quarrel with her. This is her house and I'm just the stranger. I have got no right to say anything.

She always got a lots of comments and each comment bring me pain. Yes, i know i can't be staying here forever, but is this what i want? If only i have a choice. Ever since i have been staying here, my mom has moved my everything upside down. I suppose to have a small corner for myself but now i did not even have it anymore.

Even for Yozai, he does not like his sis at all.

Have you seen a woman like that before?

Touch your things and move your things around and even throw some of the things she think is a junk and have to be clear away and never even tell you and never ask for a permission for doing so?

Yes, i have got no right for you to ask a permission but please do respect.

If you are pissing me off I'm going to upload the video and show to everyone.

Changing the newspaper for the dogs need to put very nicely want hor?

Are you CRAZY?

My dogs, they are my dogs!!! What is your FUCKING business to care what i feed them? I think you are a WEIRDO!

IF ONLY I have a CHOICE, DO you think i need to stay here? Do you think i want to stay here? Without you chase me out of the house i have my planning to move out too.

I have my life too. Whatever i do, you are always not pleased at all! Mother FUCKER bitch, I don't see the need to please you at all.

You are a QUEEN?

YOU are just a CRYING BABY when you came back hor!

Follow your mom everywhere of the house. Asking her what should you do.

Good! When you recovering you start to chase me out.

You start to say, "Why don you move back"? "Why are you staying here"?

I thought you have accept the fact of me staying here but you were like a monster last night.

I don't feel good even i have blog till so far. SERIOUSLY, if only i have a choice.

Happy New Year!

2011-01-01T15:29:00.002+08:00

It have been 3 months since my last blogging.

I got my lappy ASUS G73JW as a Christmas present from Anthony.

My work contract coming Sept 2011, will be ending.

Anyway, i don like to blog.

I hope to have a voice recording rather have to type.

Yeah, i know im LAZY. Haha.

Here's my prayer. And this have been posted at my facebook.

Dear God,

I pray that in year 2011, would be a good year with world peace.

People who are working or in business, hope they are earning more and have a good prospect.

People who are in a family, hope their family stay stronger and overcome each of the obstacles.

People who are in studying, hope they are getting flying colors each of the examinations.

People who are in a relationships, cherish and treasure each other.

People who are in single, hope they meet a right person soon.

People who are lost in love, hope they are able to use time to heal themselves in a correct way.

I pray all the living creatures in earth Will able to live well and stay healthy and cheerful.

I pray whole of the people, stay healthy, stay cheerful and most of all

we are thankfulness for God you have created for us.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Happy 2011!

Iphone 4

2010-10-12T07:46:00.000+08:00

My last post was my iphone 3GS spoiled.

Never mind because i got my Iphone 4.

This phone is a special phone because it very expensive though it a gift for my birthday present.

The spoiled Iphone 3GS, i went down with my Aunt to Plaza Singapura.

Thought that could be able to exchange a new one but, the person who checked my phone knew that the phone was in water condition so if i want i need to pay $328 to get a new one.

Anyway I'm intend to give my aunt and so she have to pay for the phone.

Right now the Iphone 3GS, my cousin, Zheng Wei is using it.

Anyway, I Simply love my Iphone 4. ((:

This blog...

at the moment I'm not going to blog cause I'm just too lazy.

2010-10-01T08:41:00.000+08:00

MY IPhone is Dead!

2010-09-10T14:40:00.000+08:00

5 - 7 September 2010

No special.

8 September 2010, Wednesday

This is my one year for staying there.

My 1st time for staying so long in office line.

After work, went to TBP to shop for my shoes and clothes to prepare to attend a Wedding dinner.

Bought shoes and clothes and all these cost me very expensive. I bought gown for the wedding dinner and some other clothes at York Boutique. Total spent cost me $350 in a day.

9 September 2010, Thursday

I'm on leave.

10 September 2010, Friday

Today is A PH.

This song made me think of u, MLB.

Ciao~

I HATE NANA!

2010-09-04T09:51:00.001+08:00

Right now i have a very big of Desire.

I wanna go to the bank and have a loan from them and go for slimming @ London Weight Management...haha.

OMG, I'm so helpless and i need to go bank for loan.

I'm still thinking, should i?

Well, i posted a message in FB

"SERIOUSLY, I HATE NANA!"

And i said is = people who are going there.

Simply to say is, I HATE THOSE people who working there as band.
But i have deleted after posted the message.

Cheapskates and BU LIAO LIAN!!!

I HATE HER!

For coming to my world.

GO HELL MIX MIX PU BOR!

Sick sick sick

2010-08-26T07:56:00.000+08:00

16 August to 20.

That last week it was fast to move on.

Nothing special for me to blog any from that period.

21 August 2010, Saturday

Smsed Anthony and asked him, "U still owe me a meal hor"? And he replied say yes. So meet up at TBP to have Rajah Inn, Steamboat. After that eating, as because my shoe spoil so gotta a new pair so went to buy shoes. And then went to buy a small hangbag and went to More than Words to buy a V cute Bag...lol.

And then buy a comb from Body shop. Then we see the time is bout to go to boat quay there. Took a bus and went there.

Amy saw me when i was sitting outside the raining bar. Then she called out my old name "Serene". She was with her colleagues beside raining bar. So when i free i go over to look for her. Haha. Then she also will come over to look for me. Then after finish our drinks at raining bar. I took cab down to NANA! It was not bad la. Then i walked home after that. I also dk that i can from central mall walk back leh...Though it near la, but lazy me don't walk de ma some more is i walking alone back. Think maybe because i drunk liao ba.

22 August 2010, Sunday

I was hangover la, but u still prepare my meals. Cooking porridge. Looks like Sunday is Porridge time.

At night i was feeling not very good. Feel like i having a fever. So try to sleep perhaps will be better the next day.

23 August 2010, Monday

I was feeling freaking bad la. So msg my colleagues to notify them that i will be one 2days MC. Then i went to the same place to see doctor. Bought subway for my lunch or so called brunch.

24 August 2010, Tuesday

Still feeling okes...had a nap in the afternoon.

25 August 2010, Wednesday

Anthony came to send me to work. From 7 to 10 that time i was pretty fine but after that time i got fever sia and it from temperature 37.9 slowly to 38. I went lunch to sleep. After that, came back to office and the temperature raise to 38.7. Den slowly dropped to 38 after a short time. So suffering sia. And the time it was so slow to past. When i came back it only 1pm. So i waited the time till off work at 4.30. Anthony say he will come to pick me up. So i tell him i need to buy things so he helped me to buy and send me back.

When i reached home, i straight go and bathe and faster pop in medicine to eat. Waiting for the hair to dry at time i was dozed off and Zephkiel's mom shouted me to wake up. She said must dry my hair 1st. So she help me to dry my hair using a hair dryer. After that i went to sleep till dk what time awake and sleep back.

26 August 2010, Thursday

So i think, i should be going to see doctor. I don't want like yesterday like that. So suffering must endure the bone pain and cannot rest..and must do things and it was really cmi for me. So coming sat Yoshi will turn 2yr old. Wee~~~ Ciao!

出賣

2010-08-15T23:04:00.002+08:00

13 August 2010, Friday

It the Friday the 13th. After work went to BMC to look for Kenny to do my hair. Dyed and cut and treatment, $45. Promotion period tt why so cheap. After that, went to NTUC and bought Durians of $50. Had my durians, and it so Yummy.

14 August 2010, Saturday

I was supposed to meet Jason to go chalet and to drink. End up i did not go as my Aunty came to visit me. So good hor, she came to see me. Haha. But because i still wanna go out so msg Jason. But bad him did not reply my sms and my calls. So i went to Tbp to do Pedicure and had my dinner and go to NTUC to buy things. Then reached home and went out again with Yozai. Took 195 wanted to esplanade de. End up hor, no. Because of YOG. The road was blocked. And end up, i carried him instead letting him walk as too many people were there so have to carry him. Then from Marina Square walk till to city hall. Though it near la, but hor must walk so big round. While walking to city hall, i saw Shayne, my former classmate in oss. And we chatted a bit and added her in FB. Then i took bus to go home le. My aunty came to visit me and i need to walk so much. My back kinda tired lo. Haha. Reached home bathe and sleepy le.

15 August 2010, Sunday

Woke up around 7plus and feeling hungry le. So get up to prepare my breakfast. I cooking porridge. The things i bought are for my porridge. Century eggs, salted eggs and mince pork. Bout took 45 mins for everything. And the porridge it so Yummy...Who wanna try my porridge? Hahaha..end up the porridge became my ...Whole day meal. Because i cooked 3.5 cups...ha. Okes...I going to rest le and have an early rest. Stomach not well as aunty kick me...haha. Ciao!

Is love so Fragile?

2010-08-11T22:45:00.003+08:00

Today i found out that one of the teacher and another teacher, they have broke up.

Is it true or not I'm not so sure. I heard that from Raja.
She said the man broke up with the woman and now he is with a new woman who is also a teacher and in e same school. I was very surprised indeed Greatly Surprised. Is love so Fragile?

I came to the school for going to a year and they now like on the rock. Is it true? If yes, if for me, i wont go for this type of man
or woman if the other party never thought of settle down.

Yes, in love there is no wrong or right.

Right feeling follow the flow and go.

Hmmm, i do not want to get myself to get involved in their things.

Because is none of my business.

Hmmm, i had a long weekends. Stay at home and never go anywhere. Watching hk drama and play games. And sleep...Haha!!!

Went back to my house on Tuesday. And got back lots of letters. Handphone bills got to settle. This and that la. Everything needs money. What's wrong of being poor? Why everything is a money involved? Is money can solve out everything? Is money only the solution? Wth!!!

I hate it! Because people always says, "No money No talk!"

Anyway, I hate people to use money to step on people.

In this world, if you got no money, you got no stand to talk at all.

Life is like a Bitch!

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing

By Yuna Ito

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile, I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you, right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes, don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
Yeah, I don't wanna miss a thing

Cherish

2010-08-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

All i know now is I'm broke. Haha.

I thought of you whenever i checked my email and saw your folder as 5 July 2008.

(That was the date we 1st met at cinileisure, remember?)

(I seldom to using desktop as i always using my phone to check my email)

I read all the messages you send to me.

And realized it was going to be 2 year ago.

And to me, though we never start before but, for the whole three months, before you left, it was sweet, sour and bitter at the end.

MLB, this is the blog i created for you.

I know i have choose not to be friend with you anymore and even deleted you in everything which contactable.

I have read through all e emails you send and think...

I don't love Zephkiel anymore.

(Ever since you left)

I'm still the same staying here.

And hoping to get out from here asap.

But to think of...

You are not the one for me.

Because it only took you to fell in love to someone else in a short time.

Guess the time you have stop contact me,

You were already have her.

I was no surprised that i received a sms from you for asking do i still keep the photo that you and your ex photo.

I wonder why did i still have this blog?

Waiting for you to read?

Truly i wanna thanks you.

Thanks for the care and love you showered to me.

And learn a very important word from you,

which is,

Cherish.

Guess I lack of how to Cherish.

FluFluFlu Go away

2010-07-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

29 July 2010, Thursday

After work i went to TBP. I went to Pet's Station and guess what...I spent $171 for all the stuffs that i bought. I bought Dog's shampoo la, leash, Rabbit's food, cans food, milky sticks and some nylons bones for my dogs. And went home bathe and dinner and ...took medicine and slept early.

30 July 2010, Friday

Still down with flu after two days. Lucky time pass faster and ...i went to TBP again and this time, spent another $95. Bought the leash again ...as i only bought for my Yozai. Then went to eat Sakae Sushi. Been craving for my Hana Maki so much...Lol...Then reach home, bring my dogs with Zephkiel to go downstairs for walk. Just had a game of Dota. And my team was sucks. Feeder...And i said one player, Go play AI before you play online. And, you are not even up to a Girl standard. Haha. He never even respond to me, guess he must be feel that If I'm really girl and i can kill, Y cant him?

Anyway, i going to rest cos my flu has not yet recovery...Good night my Friends and take care!

I'm sick again

2010-07-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

26 July 2010, Monday

Mrs Raja was on course for two days. So i have to cover up her duties. Which my things i have to leave aside.

27 July 2010, Tuesday

Mrs Raja on was on course. So all the printing stuff i have to go. So my things still did not manage to do.

After work went to buy chicken wings home.

28 July 2010, Wednesday

I asked Zephkiel to send me to work since he can wake up so early and like so free. Haha. So i got a sore throat. Thx to the chicken wings i had last night. After work went to tbp for facial and after that i went to sakae sushi to have my dinner. Cos my sore throat i din want to eat at home cos dk wad the dish would be. Total bill was $35 for all the things i had and went home. Reach home have a quick bathe and pop up medicine because I'm sick le. Have a badly sore throat now. Was playing one game of dota and i have leave the clan le. Be a Clan less is better.

Hey, I shared things with Esther, and she feel that Cat is also interested in you. Told you, i never add on things to her, i just tell her the facts that she lay her hand on your lap. Yes you can say, if she like you she will contact you. But have you think she might don want cause she want you to contact her. What you should do, at least you push her hand off but you did not. Correct! I'm not your who but, I'm your friend that telling you fact! Since you don't wish to continue this and i have nothing to say also.

And to the many ways you said, please, you guys doesn't like playing guessing game neither we girls like. I want an action not talk without actions. I'm tired. If you wanna make it happen, you have to show me if not,

Leave it shut it and off it!

FADE off

2010-07-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

I'm replying to Your question ...

What makes me think that she got a feeling for you ar?...

Very easy, don you feel that she stand very close to you meh? And hor, her hand was on your lap leh...

You cannot feel it? Or was it you feel good so you never ask her not to like tt? She is just always stand in between us. And even the cup also between our cups.

Why I angry bout her also another thing. I was away and went to toilet. That fish soup it was mine lo. Even if i don want liao, she also cannot just like tt go eat please, don she have manners? Shouldn't she wait for me to be back and eat?

And ya, i read your blog. So what even she got a feeling for you but you don have it for her.

Please lo, right now you have feeling for me and and when as time go by feeling can be fade off de.

So maybe by the time you already has feeling for her liao.

I mean, i don stop you to have feeling for her as we all are human beings. Feeling is very easy come and go and FADE off the most!

Maybe, maybe, you right now confusing whether do you have suddenly a feeling for her?

To me is a YES la! If yes, good la, at least you two loving each other...Gosh what am i talking bout?

Anyway, I'm speechless.

Got thing to say re my post again...

COMMENT it...

if not SHUT IT!

I'm just been little Crazy!

2010-07-24T20:09:00.002+08:00

20 July 2010, Tuesday

Meet up my clan mate ET at liang court after work.

We had dessert and we chatted and luckily we still got a topic to chat and he going to fly off the next day back to perth to continue his studies. After that he still got his dinner to attend and so we say bye and i took cab home as it was raining heavily. From liang court back to havelock road it cost me $10 for the cab fare.

21 July 2010, Wednesday

Went to have my dinner with Melvin and he drove me to somewhere after my work. We ate Zhu Zha soup. After that, he send me home. Nothing much cos I'm too tired so did not go for movie and i do not really like to watch movie also de.

22 July 2010, Thursday

i cannot rmb, STM me.

23 July 2010, Friday

Anthony send me to work.

It was ET's birthday and he was funny, he send me msn "Say Happy Birthday" so i did say and after that send him an E card to wish him.

And Friday it was a bad day to me. I was late for going to lunch so Mrs Raja called me to say Why i so late then go lunch. Nvm, then back to work after lunch, there were a lots of people and so i need to serve them quickly. And so got this vendor to deliver his goods and YS just nice that he wasn't around. So i helped him to check and i received it for him. When he back and he said the things he wanted were incorrect. So my fault? Okes, partly my fault. But, don you think u are in wrong too? You are at least tell us that ur goods is coming and wait for you to come back or call you if you are not around. How would i know it was so suay that the things were not correct. And i still very hao xin and ask, how was it and he totally Shut his mouth and give me face to see. WTH!!! NVM, it over!!!

After work, Anthony came and pick me from my workplace to send me home and He Told me bout the things why he was shocked! Because Jean was msg him bout the thing i told her. Anyway that bitch! Anyhow say i keep scolding her. F U LA!!! U want me to print screen? In that msg i send u thru plurk, i never scold you la, only an IDIOT was in that msg and no more. WTF!

So at night meeting Anthony to go drink at Raining Bar. Before reaching there, He send me a sms to tell me that the purpose he got his car cos he need to send all the gals from the event to home. When i read it, i feel that You must as well don tell me. I feel there is no different between lies and at the end to tell me.
I just remember i guess it is MLB's bdae. Idk is it or not but just think that it kinda familiar.

24 July 2010, Saturday

Seriously, as a gal feeling hor, That waitress CAT she got a feeling for you. Please la, It very obvious that everybody can see you got interest in me la. Why she need to stand in the middle between us sia? She a clever gal and not those DUMB! What she trying to do is to testing me whether will i get jealous is it by getting too close to you? And hor, when i reached, I'm talking to you right, so wad if she know me and you can just CUT IN want huh? And hor, next time got people want to do the things like eyeliner want ar, U know i did before. But you don have to tell her de ma. Whether is it or not also for me to say. Cos this is quite Private to me. Not just to me, guess every gals will feel the same. Just next time don tell people will do liao. I'm not angry or what. I'm pretty angry bout CAT! Did you see like other waitress like the Sally? Does she do that? She did not lo. But CAT she is. CAT has over the line. There always a line for them la. To you, you are always sweet but to me is NO! I suddenly speechless. Do not know what to continue.

Anyway after finish drinking, We went to McDonald to get take away. Anthony send me home and i reach home bathe and then watch show and then during when i was at the McDonald i was Chatting in Msn with ET. Thx ET for accompanied me for chatting with me an hour. And i went to sleep after that as i was tired also.

And of cos i did not finish my meal so this morning when i awake went to heat it up and eat as for my Brunch. Was playing dota and watching show as Zephkiel not around as he went out with his friends.

What i can say is do Continue to test my limit.

被爱是幸福，爱人是痛苦

2010-07-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

My blog is going to reach two years in another 8days.

MLB bdae over? Idk cos i forgotten when was his bdae.

I trying hard again not to cry ...I did it. To control not to cry is a big problem to me. As i always cry out loud. And i wanna be brave so i keep telling myself not to cry and not to let tears drop on my cheeks.

I feel like there is a sentence which is always right.

"被爱是幸福，爱人是痛苦。"

I feel like, none of the guys in this world can be trusted. Feel like i don have secure at all with guys.

Anyway, I wanna to be a simple girl.

我觉得，我很难去相信一个人。我需要的，我也不知道。

I Think I'm not ready

2010-07-19T15:09:00.001+08:00

I trying my best not to cry or anything. Holding my tears back not letting to come out from my eyes. It was very hard as my heart feel the pain. Though i hate crying but crying will feel better. I just did not cry out as i don't want my tears to drop because someone. I don't want because if i cry then i will always cry out for this someone. I feel that, i have totally lost trust on guys lo. I will have that kind of uneasy reaction. To other people might think that is unreasonable. But, to me, is not. To me is when i feel not secure, i will show that kind of reaction. Anyway, if you choose to believe other people's words rather than you come forward to confront me. I have nothing to say. After all, I'm just your normal friend.

I feel that, people around me they are just being a faker to me. Trying to act as if they are really real care but in sense they are not. They just wanna to get some story from you and make it all around like a Trumpet. Argh, idk WTH I'm talking about now. Rubbish!!!

I can trust no one!

2010-07-14T22:16:00.001+08:00

5 July 2010, Monday.

I Did not go for the Tai ji as it too tired for me the next day for work. Told QX that i don think can go anymore as i don want the next day to be so tired as i work 7 ma.

6 July 2010, Tuesday.

I cannot remember leh.

7 July 2010, Wednesday.

It was Jovelle's Birthday, Happy 24th Birthday!

And Allan too!

8 July 2010, Thursday.

I cannot remember too. STM la.

9 July 2010, Friday.

Took MC as i was sick and rested at home.

Sleep for the whole afternoon.

Kenna Cold.

But At night i still went for drink and meet Anthony at Boat quay to Raining Bar.

Drink and drink and sing and ..Took cab home by myself as i requested to go home by myself.

10 July 2010., Saturday.

Was resting at home. And called my aunt and she told me to take leave as my Grandma not free have to accompany my mom go somewhere. Sms-ed My AM to tell her.

11 July 2010, Sunday.

Sms my AM again and she allowed me to take leave on Monday and Tuesday.

12 July 2010, Monday.

Was late and took cab down to my own place.

So long did not see my grandpa and he is getting thinner and thinner...

And so...I was there with my grandpa and my 4th aunt.

Cut short, after that My Mom and grandma was back so My aunt's husband me home.

13 July 2010, Tuesday.

As i knew i will sure tired and that the reason that i took leave for today. Nothing much was at home playing dota and watch some drama. Then at night i was totally pissed off by my Chief. It was an APEM for dota. Play AP la! Angry.

14 July 2010, Wednesday.

Anthony came to send me to work and he was there so early, 6.45am.

Back to work and i got loads of work to do and i did not do ...SIGH...

After work Anthony was waiting for me to off work.

He send me to TBP for my facial and foot massage.

As he need to meet people later so he was hanging around TBP.

Waited me have finish, we went to dinner at Sushi.

Saw Veronica and her mom and i was the one to notice her.

Eat till so full. And i got to know one thing.

Which bout FW.

It made me feel that, Right, no guys can be trusted.

I feel so upset and I'm Disappointed.

I was just think, FW got gf and he can do such things behind his gf.

If i have a BF like him, i will, idk what i will do.

But i know, trust between me and my BF is gone.

So at the moment now, i feel, No GUYS can be trusted.

It just a courage to accept guys if i can.

But now, i don't think so as i feel no secure at all.

After all, ALL MEN are the same.

An EMO of me

2010-07-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

Oh ya...My Yobi two year old liao...which was actually last month on 27. I almost forgot and i did not have any thing prepare for him ...Sad him..Don't know whether he know his birthday or not..ha.

Last night, went down to boat quay meet Jason there. He want to finish the the bottle ma so pei him lo. In the end i never drink much but instead he drink la. Then i saw my fren outside the raining bar la. He totally act blur lo. Cannot say he don recongise me de lo...Nvm la and then after that when the bottle finished, Jason order a jug of beer. Then hor nvm la, he said want to go home and i don want go home so ask him to leave 1st. So, left me to drink lo. I get myself a fish soup noodle. If not how i drink sia. I hate beers. Haha. Then the bar closing soon la so i don want to wait to finish then go lo...Stil left a bit nia so i left.

As i still don't want go home so called harry to ask where was he lo. Then went down by cab to look for him at beach road there. If i know i don go down le..cos i went down 5mins later he say leave liao. I did asked him b4 i come down. Then share cab with his fren to go home. I want to pay cab fare but his fren say no need. At least he got some gentleman. HAHA!!

Then emo-ing me. Sat at the deck there. Was CRYING. Then sms Jason 1st to let him know I'm home ...I don't know i sat for how long la. In the end went up after cried. Then bathe and then wait a while hair dry abit and go sleep le. I guess i slept around 6 ba and i was awake around 10 plus.

Anyway My blog turning to Two Year old too.

And, MLB this month is your birthday.

Happy Birthday to you and my blog.

God Bless!

My whole day was just slacking. And sms-ing with Anthony, Melvin and Jason. And ...Anthony, Faster get a house soon... HAHA.

Wo de Tian, tmr is Monday le. That all.

Another day!

2010-07-03T13:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, Anthony send me to work and fetch me from work. TY, Anthony. And yesterday was raining v v v heavily sia...Haha

Last night was meeting Jason and Cryeel at boat quay and we went to drink. A martell and we did not finish it as Cryeel was driving so he nv drink much. And me as i was not able to drink like last week so nv force myself to drink so it kept there with my name ...lol...I'm not the one to pay but i got the name for the bottle..haha...Then Cryeel send me home with Jason. Reaching home i feel kinda sian lo as i did not want so early to reach home thou it 3plus liao. So wait Jason to reach home and to play dota...Na Li Zhi Dao, i was DC-ed and have to wait for them...finish the game. So i just lie down on the bed and i dozed off le...Haha...When i was awake, i just shut down the com and back to sleep. PS Jason.

Today, the com keep hang and hang so ...it time to clean the com and wow, so many dust la..haha..Makes my finger painful as i need to clean the fan...i got 6 fans to clean and the fans so squeezy...my fingers are fat la...so have to endure the pain while cleaning ...and now I'm using a lappy to blog. I'm clever okes....Haha. I let the com to rest 1st. GOSHHHH...I need a LAP TOP!!! This lappy is Zephkiel's father company de...so it soon got to go back there and YA!

How i wish i got a Laptop so i can have my own things inside can use whenever i want no need to share or whatever la...Can play game ..ETC...OKES, right now i waiting my order from Mcdonald to come...2pm liao leh...Wake up so long until now den i eat lo...CIAO!!!

BTW, My comment is not fake de la, Please use it!

Stay Happy!

2010-07-02T15:37:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, i blogging at my workplace. All my colleagues went for contact time and so here I'm to look after the office.

I received a long offline msg msn from Anthony. I totally agree with you with that sentence. Which is "Feeling come and go" Easy to say is Feeling fade off easily.

I can't let you wait or ask you to wait. I feel very stressed de lo at times. If lets say we are fated la, no matter how long will still be together.

When the time is right everything will be fine. With that time you are still available. Truly, i thought of being together with you. But things does not turn out well. You can say Why I'm always like that?

For me, i also don't know why I'm always like that, not that i want to be like that.

Anthony, i know at point of times you been wanted to give up but end up you did not. I see your effort and your everything to me.

Yeah, we been going this again and again.

I don't want things to be like that.

Can we just follow the flow?

See where the flow bring us to.

Fated or not fated lets see.

We are all growing adult and i don want keep on see you like that.

See you sad bcos of me, see you angry and everything bcos of me.

If we can we sure can.

Things has been changing a lots.

I don't want to keep on staying at this circle. a non stop circle.

I wanna be happy and you wanna be happy.

Lets stay like that and be happy.

If till the day my feeling for you return and your feeling gone, there's nothing i can do.

Bcos I'm the one to choose to be like that.

If you know

2010-06-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

27 June 2010, Sunday

Got some misunderstanding with carol. In FB like tt also can quarrel.

28 June 2010, Monday

Back to work liao. Wake up too early also and this is bad as i not enough sleep. Meeting QX after work and he send me home 1st then we meet again to go Tai ji. My 1st time there la. Start at 8 and end at 9.30 pm. Feeling so tired after that then have to wait for QX 1st cos he need to practice more of it since the teacher still not there to coach. Then went back, went to drink then i feel hungry so order a hor fun to eat. Then chit chatted wtih him at the coffee shop and we back later. Reach home 11 plus liao then went to bathe and was kinda refresh liao and so go play a game. And went to sleep at 12am.

29 June 2010, Tuesday

Wa, i very tired sia and cannot get up but still have to get up. So went to prepare myself to work and it was raining so tot of taking cab lo...Na li zhi dao...no cab in the end have to book a cab as i v late liao...Reach there 7.20 and the cab fare was $12.85. Super ex la. Don think will go tai ji ba cos the next day i gotta work so early. My work start to busy liao. Then waiting for lunch break then went to sleep as i need sleep badly. Then was waited to off work nia. Went home to watch drama and dinner and after that i dozed off liao. Hahax. So tired la. Then later awake went to bathe and wait awhile sleep liao.

Then CA deleted me from FB. It okes la, you want delete lo. YOU the self who been so ming gan den want to act blur say im ming gan. Please la, you tot everybody can tahan ur attitude ar? Been a straightforward person is no crime but you are just kid la. After so long liao, i don't see you grow up leh. Btw hor, i never ever comparing my life and yours. You have urs and i have mine. What for i compare sia? Got gold to receive ar? WTH! Say i playing love game. If i playing i don need be single for two years plus hor! You are the one to step on my tail 1st stil trying to be blur like as if i step yours 1st. TMD!!! GO HELL AR! PCB!!! I felt so sad the way you talk about me cos i treat you as friend but end up you did not. Im not happy ar, you no need to say, i will also GET LOST OF YOUR SIGHT! Because your brain is still like a KID brain!

30 June 2010, Wednesday

Took cab to work down again as i was going to late le by the time i reach the bus stop. Lucky today not so bad as least only $4.8. So busy le. Work coming and coming in...prepare for the P1 intake...and of cos lunch break went to sleep. Waiting for work nia...then same lo, came back watch drama den dinner after that i dozed off ...When awake it 9 so play a game...And now i blogging la...Lol

As for Anthony,

this message is for you.

Look, i don mean to play a game or what. From the very start i admit my feeling for you was not constant but after some time when you send me an email, and i did blogged too, to tell you from not constant became no feeling at all. I mentioned say i wish, I wish i can love you la. But no. I wish i can being with you but seriously no cos i cannot accept myself to be with a someone who i don love at all. Im not a perfect gal who can just go means go. Try means try. I rather don try if not will further cause you pain. I don want to be the gal that makes you hate gals better after that. I don want be the last gal to hurt you. If i want, i want to be the last gal to love you. To love you and prove you that there is still love just like how you proved it to me. But sorry, i cannot...and of cos, you are that kind of man that i wanted. But, the feeling for you is not been growing but rather has stop to grow. Maybe that what people says "Feeling fade off easily". Whatever i want to say, i have say. No point waiting for me.

CC, i know you are coming back soon. All these years, i feel so bad. I just wish me and you did not started at all. It could be better in that way. Maybe in the middle going to start but end up never. Better that, at least i don't have to feel so bad. CC, i already got my bad things happened to me after you. I'm not trying to say that because of bad things happened i blame you. NO, cos just wanna say, for what you see those things happened to me, would you forgive me? I Feel that, after so long, you might already has let it go. No more memories? To me have, whoever talking bout your name, i will have lots of flash back memories. I know it all my fault. But at least you are fine right? I don't think you still rmb me right? Anyway, if i still cannot forget bout the past with you, i will not have you to appear in my life anymore. I will vanish from you. Whoever related to you, i will stop contacting. Truly the memories, it not painful but that kind of missing you is the worst state. Argh, what im typing...zz. I don't know if i will do that.

The End!

Ciao!

10-27

2010-06-27T13:30:00.000+08:00

10 June 2010, Thursday
I had dinner with buddy at TBP, Sakae Sushi after my work.
It was a nice dinner and i ate so full and after that buddy send me home.

11 June 2010, Friday
It was Sebastian's Birthday.
Before that celebration with him.
I had lunch my lunch with my former classmate, Esther at TBP and again Sakae Sushi.
We chatted bout our life and here and there and she keep asking me when I be getting married and i said her la, she been asking me this Q a lots of times liao so she mentioned okes la...Concern bout you ma, cos she already married and got two kids.

Back to work, i been waiting to off work as i need to meet out with my friends later after wotk to home.
Meeting them at Bugis and i cab down to meet them. That time it was 7.30 liao so i don't want them to wait and so the cab fare is $12 but i gave $14? Anyway when i arrived, Eljin was not there yet. When the late boy came, we walked there to the steamboat place to have dinner but sad no place for us as we booked but the person did not keep the place for us. So that was too bad, and so we headed to Swensen to eat. It was my suggestion cos got free ice cream ma for the Birthday boy. Haha. I ordered the baked rice with mushroom. And it tasted like Mui Fan leh. The baked rice is not like baked at all. So watery that kind. Like Chinese food, Mui fan. After the dinner, we went to boat quay to drink. Was meeting Carol there and headed to Plush Bar. Anyway, its great to have a meet up with them.

18 June 2010, Friday

It was class gathering meeting at Marina Square.

Before that, i wanna thx my buddy for sending me to work.

And when reach workplace, so asked around wanna order McDonald to eat.

So called and wait for their delivery to come.

It was treat for them as my bdae on the 19 June ma.

My AM, she was so pai seh la...Then when she know it was my bdae, cos they asked me how come i treat? Tio lottery is it?

Then i said oh, tmr it my bdae. Haha. Then my this sweet AM, Nisaa. She went to TBP to buy a cake for me leh. And a gift from bodyshop. So touching la, and den we snap snap here and there.

Wait for time to go off. So buddy was able to come and pick me send me home.

Preparing myself for the class gathering.

Before going out, i cut my finger accidentally. Lucky i know some basic treatment. The wound was kinda deep so it painful.

Took bus 195 down to Marina Square.

When alighted, i found that my shoe was spoil. The base of the shoe came off but lucky got Eljin on his way to park his car so went to get glue for me and help me put glue and then we went to look for them as they have reached.

Was eating Hot pot. Taking picture and chit chat. After the dinner, went to Esplanade the Harry's Pub there to drink. Then Amy and Harry came down, chit chat with them, At 12 Midnight, i got SMS, call, and My friends to wish me a "Happy Birthday". So we off to Boat Quay with Lotus, Carol, Amy and Harry. Down to Raining Bar as Plush was full. Got a tower and after that around 2plus headed home.

19 June 2010, Saturday

It was my Birthday.

Been in this world for the 24 years liao.

I was not going anywhere. Staying at home to rest.

Receiving Sms and call and some FB wall post from my friends.

ThxQ u Guys!!!

21 June 2010, Monday

I on leave for this week.

So nice to rest at home.

So Jio my friends to Boat Quay to drink.

Posted msg on Fb so easy for me.

23 June 2010, Wednesday

Jio my friends to go drink at Boat Quay.

As i waited so long, so i order a tower 1st lo.

So i drank for half of the tower then they come.

Seriously drink beer is not my type cos i sure drunk easily.

Then my buddy came, then FW and his gf came.

Then Harry and his fren came. Then the late Jason came also.

So i will following Harry liao le. Then Jason was with me.

Was telling Harry bout CC and me. Sad ar!

So, i drunk cos my kick came so fast and i was vomit liao means CMI and so i want to go home. Sms them say i reach home liao.

Then was fucking pissed off cos my buddy say i PS him. I just reply him say, You know i jio my friends down de, den u must sure know that i will not stay there what. Good for u! Thx for telling me cos i never know how great u are a buddy.

24 June 2010, Thursday

Nice, i meet out with Harry to accompanied him to see doctor at night as he took Mc nv go to work. Went with dinner with him but i nv eat as i eaten so see him eat and after we down to bugis there to drink. I never drink much la. Only a bottle for the whole night. Lolx! Then sing song...all the night. Haha. Went home after that.

25 June 2010, Friday

My 3rd day drinking again.

Meet up with Xian and carol.

They came to fetch me and we went to Park there to chat.

After that down to Boat quay to drink la.

Did not tell my buddy i came. Haha.

Buddy came in when he reached.

Then FW came and Xian and carol left after that.

I think i drink liquor more than beer. At least i never drunk at all.

So, quarrel with my buddy for a stupid thing. I don't want him to send me home tt all.

So nvm that also...i called a few people...and Melvin was the only one say come down to look for me. Within 15minutes as he promise he reach and went to a place to talk and after that, send me home.

So sweet of him la, and as usual he also like to ask me when i can be his GF. Lolx. And as usual, i always find excuses to tell him a NO.

26 June 2010, Saturday

I feeling alright even though i drink so much. Thx to Fish noodles soup as it got lots of milk so i guess that the reason my Wei was alright. So Ordered McDonald to eat as i was too hungry and as usual de la, always McDonald cos Zephkiel is always so lazy to go out to get food for me.

My friends wanna jio me for drink again but i never go so stay at home play dota with my freinds. Then after that Jason called me and we chatted on the phone for 2hours plus then play dota again. Then after that i went to sleep around 4 am le ba.

27 June 2010, Sunday

I found that MLB no is no longer using liao.

Anyway today is Sunday.

Times files ar, my one week no pay leave just like that, FLY!

I gonna delete CC from my FB. Guess i don want to think about him anymore just like MLB.

Anyway, this is a long post. Thanks for reading if you read till here.

Ciao.

Happy Birthday to You!

2010-06-09T09:20:00.001+08:00

Wow, i been so long never updates my blog. Right now I'm at my workplace doing blogging leh. Hahax. I got nothing to do and so i at home too lazy to blog so i do it right now.

Today I was late for work for 8mins because morning i was too lazy to get up and keep lazing on the bed...Hahax.

Anyway i will be uploading all the photos that i been have not upload yet. It nothing just a little sweet cause got Sunflowers which is my favourite.

The pedi and medi when it was done during before CNY 2010.

The SunFlowers which Zephkiel bought for me on the Valentine'sDay which is CNY Chu Yi.

That time my Yozai went to sterlized. So have to wear the crown.

See He give that look.

The Sunflowers which my buddy send to my office on 18 May 2010 to cheer me up.

So i put it in a vase in school cause home don't have vase ma.

I place it at the sickbay.

The 2nd time he send to me this month on 4. Again just to cheer me up.

And tada, same thing i put it in the same vase and same place.

Thanks Buddy for sending flowers just to cheer me up.

Anyway today is 9, I wish Juliet aka cakee a happy Birthday. Though i do not know her in real life but she a very sweet girl which she is in my link. Check it out her blog and you will know. And 2 more days to my friend, Sebastian's birthday(11 June) and 10 more days to my Birthday. Cheers!!!

Recently I'm so in love with this song,

Jay Chou 周杰伦 ( 超人不會飛 )

THE.ONLY.EXCEPTION

2010-05-16T12:14:00.001+08:00

This is my 258 post since year 2008. 1st of all, i have a Mysterious person tagged at my tagboard and name as "Stalker01, Stalker02 and Stalker03". Which all came from my buddy's blog link which i can see from my "Live Traffic Feed". And my blog got so special ma? You need to type it thru google to view my blog?. Whatever it is, I DON'T CARE! Because you are not in my CARE list.

2ndly, I'm still sick. I took MC for the last week of Wed and Thurs Mc and Friday i took half day leave and this week of Friday i took Mc again. Wow, in just 2weeks time i need to spend almost $60 for my medical bills. It is so bad and i guess i have a very bad impression to the VP. Anyway, I'm entitled to it to have 14 days of MC. And i still left maybe 6days of Mc. Haha. So from now till Sep, its 4months left before i start to renew.

I was suppose to have a meet up dinner this Sat with my clan mates but because I'm not feeling well, i sms to my friend, Justin aka Auntie Justine. Lolx. If you gonna see it, what is your reaction? And to be fair la, I'm arpek Joey. HAHA!!!

Because of my absent, my tasks did not complete it and luckily I'm managed to done it asap. (; Give me a Star for that okes. I'm still did not complete it la but I'm able to do it for the ones that have to do...What am i talking about? Simple, tasks is complete. Lolx. I have not been submitting reports to the VP lately, because most of the teachers did not submit the file on time and i don want to if not VP would ask me, Y?. And i have to do this and that la. Which i really hate it. As in, this have been for so long since the beginning of the year. Those who forgot or late or Whatever, i have enough of that telling the VP a reason Y? They did not submit the file on time and bla bla. Because i wanna make my report perfect without need to tell her a Y. So i just did not submit to VP as simple as that.

Ermx, It was a Mother's Day right?. I did not go back to see my mom. Before the Mother's Day of that week. We have received full of notes for students to dedicate to the Mother. And Mrs Raja wanted me to share it too to Say How much You love your MOM. When i hold the card, i was thinking, NO, i do not love her and therefore i just tell Mrs Raja, i don want to have a make up story again to write how much i love my mom. And one time, when i was buying something, this salesman asked, "You wanna get a gift for your Mother's Day"? I was simply answered "I do have a mother". Somehow i know i lied for saying that but truth is Do i have a mother? I have but i don't treat her exists before. I feel upset for like that because after all she still my mom. I have totally given up on her. I do not want to repeat stuffs like Y and so fore. Read my past posts if you wanna know much of the matters.

And, i have changed my setting of privacy of my Plurk from private to public. I guess Stalkers would really like to know whats on my mind. You may come and see because I'm Plurk-ing everyday or every hour if i want to.

There is this video which my buddy has shared thru Plurk and i think is not a bad so here it is. I think I'm fall in love with this song.

02052010

2010-05-02T14:32:00.000+08:00

Its has been a week like that since my last post. I was on leave last Friday bcos Monday is the return of labour day so i took leave to make my weekends to become long weekends. And I'm sick, holy shty. Been coughing for the past few days. Hopefully by tmr will be better if not tuesday have to take MC. This morning i at about nearly 6 then sleep. Was playing dota with my clan mates. For my work up to now still okes la. My report to the VP has been delay and bcos of her MC i did not give the report to her.

Mother's Day coming, should i buy a cake for my mom? I used to buy cake for my mom and my grandmother but since dk when i have stop doing that. And during my work that time, i tot of my dad. I have not been contact my dad for two years? He has changed his hp no plus his house no and idk should i go look for him? Somehow i miss him but i think he has his own family so don't think he remember me as his daughter.

I remember he will tell my sisters and brother that, they have to thanks me bcos if not me, they will not have him. Meaning he changed to be a good father after the 1st failure marriage with my mom.

Dad, how have you been? My contact still the same you can reach me thru my hp. I tried to call you but your no is un-contactable. I forgot where you live. I mean at where as i only know is at AMK. But where it is i really cannot remember it. As you know i don go to your house often.

I remember my 18th birthday was using you as an excuse so that i can stay out. And that i was with Wenhan. You help me to tell my aunties that I'm with you but eventually is not la. I was with Wenhan. We went clubbing at MS. I forgot wad the pub name. I only know that time At MS that popular two Pubbing place. I was drunk and i slept at Wenhan's house. After wake up i quickly with him took cab down to your house. And of cos you were angry at that time. You let me have a wonderful birthday with my bf.

But I'm not with this man anymore. I'm single and staying at my Ex's house, and he is Zephkiel. I have been staying here for nearly two years. There are a lots of reason why I'm staying here. Back to the same Question again, WHY? You guys wondering too, don't you? If you can understand me, you will know what is the reason.

Kinda long for this post ya? It been long that i did not blog for a long post out. Suddenly i feel that i wanna to type out the feeling that i have been kept for so long.

And buddy told me that his ex been contacting him, sms him and he told me his ex maybe viewing my blog. But who cares. i got nothing for you to track in my blog. If you wanna be a Stalker so be it. I'm glad that you will come and read my blog but don go over my limit.

Okes, the star awards was last Sunday ya? The new comer Dai Yang Tian. He was in for the top 10. But he was out for getting the best actor award. Hello, Mr Dai! If u did not come to SG and you stay at your country, Do you think you has the chance to be in the top 10?. You should know how to appreciate it rather than complain that the judge did not give you the chance. Do you think that your acting is far as good as our local actors? YOU are consider as a ROOKIE F! I gave you an F! Our local actors and actress though they are not as good as the HK actors and actress but they are better than you in any where. Fans of Dai Yang Tian, I'm sorry to say that but, He IS JUST A NEWcomer. To me he is just a piece of SHTY.

Next one, that Jack Neo's scandal, Lexuan. She is so bitchy. I have no idea why people will still like her and commented her at her FB with so many nice words to her. I'm not jealous nor anything. Guys don't you agree? She to me is another piece of SHTY. I din even know her at all till i watch the news. Even if she was acting in some drama, i also did not know that was her. OMG, I have no idea how come i will blog about such things which does not concern me of anything. Sorry readers, waste your precious time to read such a lousy post from this portion.

Hmmm, Buddy cheer up okes. Don bcos of her makes you upset for the whole day. Let me know if she still contacting you. I will try my best to cheer you. Take care.

Okes, i think i have enough typing so many things and i gotta go. Ciao~

iNeedYou

2010-04-24T20:56:00.001+08:00

Yo bloggie.

It been long since i have blog yea. I been good and always been good. Recently my game in dota was like zz. From Clan TKJ switched to Clan z0rz. My current clan is much better than TKJ. Though it was my fren, jason who invited me in. But i do not know the rest of the people in the clan and they were not friendly at all.

At my current clan z0rx, it a lots better. Because at least they are friendly la. Hahax. And now i gotta post a song which i hear it very meaningful and the lyrics its so right for my feeling now.

STALKER

2010-03-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hey STALKER, u guys really like to visit my blog huh?

And you guys got no manners at all..

U guys don understand what is "Tag Me Before You Leave"?

Or you are just bloody shit...BLind cannot see it?

I don welcome you la...Get lost..

I always see my flag counter always got those two countries type my blog in google it.

What the problem with you guys huh?

I got nothing for you to read also...no need keep stalking at my blog.

If you piss me up, i will change my blog into PRIVATE blog.

JUST FUCKING, GET LOST!!! STALKER!

曹格 Gary 数到五答应我

2010-03-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday i gotta work as got school event so must attend to...

Feeling so tired as ..need to work on saturday..and over there was like super hot as the sun so shine on me...Hahaha...

And i wanna post out this song on Youtube.

It was a song from MLB.

Well, Remember this song? It made me tot of you every each i hear this song in my mp3.

Anyway...Its a nice song...Thumb up!

FluFluFlu

2010-03-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

This morning send sms to the vp and my am and also called up to say I'm on MC. I no mc la...will be taking as no pay leave...This month hor really a bad month ...i keep falling sick le...and like tt go on...end the pay will be lesser also...Tmr i will be taking another no pay leave cos to bring my yozai to sterilized ...Now still not feeling well...Flu flu flu...Like that go on i wonder my job still can keep well or not...Lolx.

Hmmm, last week Wen han added me in face book and i just ignore his friend request and ...even block him in facebook...and also left a msg to whoever know him de...tell him, get lost from me...Hahax.

He can bcos of his ex gave up a long friend and which is me. Though it was happened a few yrs ago liao but hor I can remember things which i will keep it well in my mind if i want. So what if u and that Bitch broke up le huh?...

She the one created the problem 1st leh and you think I'm the one to go find trouble like that...and you hor never get the matter right...you even been so bad and scolded me...

Anyway as i said, without you my life been good, been sleep well, eat well and blessed well without you the jerk in my life...

I wonder now you are 25 liao...and you still like acting like a kid like that..Grow up man..25 still can be so Zhi lian taking photo...I mean can la...but the way you take hor as if you are 18 like that...PUI!! KNS...You are not yandao look also...nor cute...Act le will become like KN lan!!!

Hahax....This my blog lo...You happen to see it...IT ur Problem. Not Happy, get a lawyer to sue me as if you rich can hire one like that...Sigh i look too highly on you liao le..Lolx.

Hmmm, So fast the one week school holidays ending soon le and tmr it Friday..and then Monday will be seeing all the students back to school le...Wow one term so fast to pass ...now coming the 2nd term liao...and is like Wow...I been there for 6 months le...Lolx..Hohohohoho...

My 1st time work so long and stay so long...i mean as admin job la...Cos last time always temporary de ma...one month and then the longest also 3months only...

I think i blogging rubbish and now keep ah chew ...and ah chew...sigh...FLU!!!

Don't blog le..like i got nothing to do blog le also waste my time and waste you guys to read also...haha. Sorry ar..and my three dogs are fighting ...making so much noise...lolx.

Gotta ...get them to shut up....so noisy...annoy me le...

Ciao..

WhatSoSpecial?

2010-03-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

It been a Monday bluey for me...

Going to work is a feeling like attending school like that.

Last time during my ite i pon too much liao now keep don want to go work..

But work cannot pon de leh...u can choose to not go to work..but...no pay leave la or ...MC the best solution if not can use the annual leave if you want but hor 14 days nia..Want to take also not enough la in a year...Hahax..

Before going to work, i was actually look through my previous post in 2008. Bring back so much flashback after reading it...

Hmmm, Have you wonder why do i have this blog exist ?

Is for you to read it...Is for you to know what I have been doing when you did not contact me. It for you that i have created this blog.

I usually don make my blog public till i know you will read it ...But anyway is not longer important as you are not there to read it and i let it be rotttttttttttt.....

Hmmm, i also don't know what am i talking about...Anyway, i have just deleted and block you in msn...

I wonder in my flag counter, there are always these two countries been reading my blog.

And it always in the search bar using google, it shows my blog.

Europe arrived from google.com

Mountain View, California arrived from google.com

Who are you guys?...Why so interested to come to my blog....And don u have manner?...To Tag me in the tagboard before you leave...?

I do have friends staying there also....Even if have also IMPOSSIBLE cos...I'm anti social de...no much friends...

I off to bed le.
Tuesday is a good day for me, i guess.

WhatIsLove?

2010-03-14T01:22:00.000+08:00

Dead blog and i still have friends to view my blog. Sorry for the time that i did not update my blog. Most of the time weekdays i working ...and then rest after work...and then weekends stay home like rot. Kinda like no life ya?...

Went to drink yesterday and last week at raining bar with my buddy...and today i post a msg on my FB.

"I never know to stop loving someone can be at anytime to stop loving to e person and fall for another one in a very short time. Or love between you and ur lover were so strong and take over e one u love earlier? The one u been wanted to be with and end up can say good bye in a mean way? Or you did not even love tat per...son from the start at all? Or sld I say, this person disappointed you and let you totally give up? I'm not a gal who lives in fairy tales tt believes love is great and love can make everything changed... Perhaps love changed you for a better but, I'm still e same old me and here I'm. So what is love? You owe me an answer till now I wanted to know. Can I say, leave me alone as I do not want to know anymore. Guess after you read this, I suppose not have you in my list which contactable to you. Or maybe u did not even read it and it fine bcos there is not needed for you. So, if one day you gonna check you will find I have been gone for so long. -MLB-."

Well, and my buddy tot it was for him...Please la...did you read properly or not?...

That msg is for another person and you are freaking sensitive...what i post ....read before you come and say nonsense to me...I wont accept your apologies bcos you always like tt...

I did say hor, i will not means i will not leh...need to repeat how many times?...

I will not leave you, buddy!!!

Can we back to normal ar?...

Whenever we are out, you like to hold my hands and I'm not ur gf yet la.

Can u please stop doing that?...

Btw ar, i don check my email so...idk u send email to me...and till now i still did not read yet...

OKes...u wanna know what to do right?...

Give up is the best solution for you.

My feeling for you became worse now...

Not even a like feeling at all now.

Used to have but the more you like that the more my feeling for you is so is so...Nothing at all.

I want to accompany you after the drink with you. But you did something which i cannot accept. Rmb last week when we were sitting there and you kissed me?...

I was like WTH, Hello, I'm not drunk hor...Den don say people leaving you alone hor...

You want people to be there, did you think what you do is correct or not?...

I just read my email...Oh?...U know wad buddy, what makes us change?

You.

If you keep the feeling inside you, maybe there's a lots of things wont change till now.

I did not blame you or anything but if u keep it I'm sure we are very good.

For like me, i don tell you i have that feeling for you. Bcos i wanna to stay that way.

Bcos i know, i wont leave now.

So, i got no other choices as i do not want to leave and therefore MLB is like that.

Sometimes i really want tell you how much i been thinking bout...but the moment i tell you, you show me the black face...makes me like ok lo, don tell better.

I wanna tell you so much....i wanna i wanna ...I know, it been so suffocate these few months for you...And you know, i been trying to kept my distance from you as much as i can...but the more im...the more you getting nearer...

I just think ...and i not sure ...what is my feeling for you now?

I can out of sudden feel so warm when i saw your msg.

I can feel Tao yan when i read ur msg when sometimes i don like to see you sms me.

Have you wonder, i used to call you to tell you my things?...

To tell you and share my everything to you...

I have stop doing that...cos i don feel to tell you anymore...

I also dk why...

Now you know why, i don want to lose you...

I cannot imagine that, for a long friend just gone like that...

When come to love it really headache huh?...

What is love?...

Someone tell me what is love....

Oh well and now, MLB.

I have deleted you from my FB and msn and the contact of you in my phone and everything.

I think i cannot keep you anymore.

To be friend with you.

Shall we become stranger?

If ever a day, we saw each other on the street, Rmb...just walk away and ...maybe we might know each other again...thru frens...lolx.

WE are God's people...but you and me not belong to the same. I also dk what im talking bout...

I'm not feeling well, ate medi and now will go to sleep...

Mlb, i will rmb you bcos you make me grow up.

Bless you and your sweet heart ever loving ..

Ciao...

iHateEverythingInYou

2010-02-20T09:49:00.002+08:00

Hmmm, i just threw the Sunflower that Zephkiel bought for me on the Vday-Lunar 1st day. I was angry la. Bcos everything say liao le wad ...will go together to go pray the Fang Tai Shui..and den yet he said his uncle did not prepare mine ...only him and his dad. WTH right?...Fine.

Yesterday after work, went to tbp to do laser on my right hand lo...Freaking painful...So guys don anyhow put tattoo cos when u gonna remove it ...it KNS pain de...u put tattoo the pain is like ants bite but when u wanna wash it away...it not ants bite liao...the pain it cannot be describe de...Anyway, i might have to pay another time...for $358.

I did not had a good new year. I don feel like I'm enjoying...I had my reunion dinner with my father's side....

And before going for the dinner, morning we went to pray our grandpa and from then i know my father has changed his no even his house number. Which means i could not contact him at all. WTF! He did not even want me anymore...Fine la...

Before that I was MC on that week before the Reunion dinner....And then, i went to medi and pedicure...and facial and do treatment for my hair...everything...lolx.

Eh, i spent all my salary this month and now left the red packets ...And wth i owe two months of hp bill Which it $250...Sigh..

I bought flute early this month and my buddy pay half of it....The flute cost $498...I need to do practice if not the flute will be sleeping there...

Eh, and then hor..my work pile up like shty...Bcos only the Attendance nia...I hate it ...i need to do all the level...and it easy la...i hate to do data entry...it so wad de la...and ....i gotta pause when there is phone call and when there is someone ask me to do things...It really WTF leh...All the pusher...

I don wanna blog le....Everytime not a good thing de...Nvm, my blog is rot like de ma...So let it be la...

Ciao

ItRandomAgain

2010-02-07T14:48:00.000+08:00

Hello.

It been so long since my last updates ya.

Been busy working and no time to blog neh...

Well, for my work, i will always have one incomplete task due to the stupid thing need to update weekly.

Sigh.

I got a praised that i done well as i always hand in the daily report on time.

Hmmm, and other issues like that time that stupid people at the canteen.

I went to buy things from her and she said "Are you leaving soon, i heard them say so"

I was like WTF, even i going to leave also not you telling me that way.

Faker always like that want la.

Nvm, i relax.

And this is for you. FAKER.

Then that time Zephkiel help me to do updates my phone. Then something went wrong that makes me have to restore it.

And once i restore all my things gone la. BAKA him.

Makes all my picture that i took also gone le...Forget it...Still my phone. Just that i took couples of photos gone le...Like my Yozai and my cousins lo.

Okes yesterday i went in JB with Zepkhiel lo.

To get more clothes.

Lolx.

Bought clothes, shoes, bag and my favourite contact lense-misty gray under fresh-kon.

I always wear lense only in some occasions.

Hahax.

Reach SG liao den saw buddy msg and i tot to go drink with him de but he CMI.

So in the end, i was quite pretty tired also lo.

Reach home and bathe and sleeping quite early too.

And today Sunday le. >.<

So fast.

Waiting CNY to come cos that week i take 2days leave.

Haha...

My blog will not always updates so much le as ...I'm too lazy.

Ciao...Don Miss me ar...Cos i will not. =p

ItTIME

2010-01-24T08:34:00.000+08:00

Wow, wow, wow, wow...It been so long that since my last updates.

Hmmm, right now I'm watching drama and at the same time doing a simple mask.

My blog rotting like hell ya?...Been working during weekdays and my weekends resting and I'm too lazy to blog. Have no idea where to start. I felt tired at work. Been working there for 4months plus and the people over there like freaking FAKE!

Oh well, my tasks has been adding everyday. I don't mind bout the tasks but i have a timeline of report have to submit everyday to the VP. Sigh, and stupid OM being the one who been BS me. Thank You leh. Fine, from now i will talk to you unless there is a NEED!

Me and my buddy, there are some changes between us. For my status now, i really can't accept you. Oh well, it TIME. Time again as ...i cannot bring myself to be with a someone and yet i don have someone in my heart.

Whenever we out together, i don know how people see us but the way you show, you are as if my boyfriend. I don't feel good. I know we had that short moment last Friday.

Somehow when things gonna happen, can't be able to stop.
I wonder why every time like that? Did i do anything that wrong? Why every time from good friend change? Not the 1st time like that. I feel like Sigh..

JustMe

2010-01-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

Wow it been so long since my last updates...

Just back from my uncle house after my buddy send me home..

Don have mood to blog for past few days...

Let it rot ba...

Argh...Feel not right ..Trying to be happy but no...

Don talk to me cos i don wanna talk to you...

Anyway...End.

HappyNewYear!!!

2010-01-01T13:11:00.000+08:00

30 Dec 2009, Wednesday.

Back to after my long weekends.

Time pass very fast.

School having AGM.

If not i suppose to have an appointment with the KK hospital so have to postpone to the next Wednesday.

Before going to off work, aunt called me to go grandpa's house as his birthday.

I was supposed to alight at my house de la...but in the end i nv instead i alighted at the place i stayed.

I was talking phone with my buddy.

Then he laughed at me lo.

So have to go take bus and go my house.

Lucky got bus if not sure wait very long de.

Went back for an hour and left liao as i was very tired and also need to prepare dinner for my dogs de ma.

31 Dec 2009, Thursday.

It eve of New Year.

Bought Yozai to work la.

Yozai very noisy when was in the bus in the morning to work.

Lucky i going to alight liao.

My colleagues saw my dogs and they said He is so Cute.

Hahax.

Having half day ma.

So 12.30 off work liao.

Then i saw bus no 123 came liao so was running to catch the bus.

But instead i saw my buddy came to find me.

So have to wait another bus to come la.

ZZZ.

Went to Tbp there to have lunch.

We had Subway!!!

After that, went to the PetStation to buy thing den i bought a new bag for Yozai, so that next time can bring that bag with him.

After that went to NTUC to buy things.

Then hor my buddy paid my things.

Sigh, i still owe him and he paid for me.

I know no need to pay him for what he paid but hor i don like to owe pple money de.

After that, went home liao.

Went home played dota ...bla watch drama lo.

At evening, Zephkiel came back liao.

Then say go out lo.

So in the fall asleep after 9 plus then awake 10plus.

We took train down and had our countdown in the MRT. Lolx.

Went to go the mind cafe at opp ParkLane there to play board game.

With Kenny and his gf, Kelvin and Pan Jian and Zephkiel and me la.

Hmmm, ok la, at least now my impression for Kenny's gf changed liao.

Not so dislike her liao.

Oh well, after that the board game went to drink there also.

We had tower ...i drank two cups nia and i feel i feel, drowsy le.

I don like beer de...lolx.

After that they wanted to go play lan la as still early ma.

In the end still never play and take cab go home liao.

Reach home bathe and wash my clothes and like go sleep liao.

I was wondering during Christmas and New year.

I received sms that some of them i did not have them in my contact liao le.

OH ya btw i saw Danny at 7-11 when i was buying cup noodles to eat after the drink.

Anyway...I had fun.

Hahax

HAPPY 2010!!!

IT Tiger's Year.

Don want counted as Chinese la.

IT still Tiger's YEAR!!

LOLX...

CiAo!!

MusicSavesMySouL

2009-12-29T09:43:00.000+08:00

28 Dec 2009, Monday.

I was sleeping for the whole afternoon.

Sleep and sleep and don wanna wake up like that..

29 Dec 2009, Tuesday.

Today leave ma so can stay at home and rest lo.

Stupid Zephkiel.

Dunno why must touch my phone and now i set code so that he cannot anyhow see my phone without my permission.

Brother, i read your blog.

Were you saying that, "Lets try out"?...

Hmmm, i think i forgot to add a line for my last post.

I do NOT Have

ANYONE

MY HEART NOW!

My heart don't allow anyone to enter now bcos, my heart has locked and the key been throw out far away till i need someone to find the key and open my heart.

And you said in ur blog that, you wanna be my future hubby?

Oh well, i do not want to see you like that neither you want to see me like this.

Hmmm, you have locked your blog and only me can read it.

I wonder, why must you blocked?

Why so secretive that you can't let her to read?

So what she hate me?

AS if i care and i don give a damn!

Anyway it is your blog and i got nothing to interfere at all also.

I just think that Why ar?

Argh, don have to tell me also.

I don wish to know.

And yea...I throw my temper to you last night.

That's ME okes!

CiAo!!!

I'mSoRRy

2009-12-28T11:38:00.001+08:00

26 Dec 2009, Saturday.

At night around 11plus went to my house bcos grandma is afraid that grandpa got something happened to him...so aunt called me to go down and i stay there or a night...

27 Dec 2009, Sunday.

Did not sleep well la.

So sleepy.

Called Zephkiel to come and fetch me to go home.

After wash up for yozai and prepare breakfast for him.

Then my turn to wash up and preparing to bring him to go see vet.

Finally he can take his last vaccinations liao le.

Being going there for almost like every week.

Cos I need to take bus no 16 and all the way to east coast there lo.

Wait uncle to come and fetch me and back to his house at teck whye.

Then went to my small aunt house there.

Saw the baby so cute and her name is Annabel, nice name.

And she is so cute la.

One month nia and she look like Wow, Big gal.

When i carried her that time i feel like she's my baby.

Hahax.

I was very tired la.

Cos did not have enough of sleep and being here and there.

Reach home liao have to prepare dinner for my dogs.

After then i go bathe after my dinner.

28 Dec 2009, Monday.

And lucky Today and Tmr I'm on leave.

Lolx. So that i can have enough resting.

Oh well, recently there are a lots of changes between me and my buddy.

Just an eve of Christmas that changes us.

Buddy, i know you are far away good to some of my former bfs.

I'm not saying that Im now rejecting you now.

But still do not put a hope on me.

As you know my character, i don't go for the one who love me.

As you know, I really afraid i will lose you one day.

I know you said, there won't be a day that you will leave me.

But who knows?

I don't know what Am i thinking also.

I do not know how do i express myself in a simple way.

You asked me whether will i accept you one day?

I'm Speechless.

I don't know what can i give you and i don't know what can i do.

I wanted a good hubby correct?

But, i don't know it making me like so stressed up maybe bcos you are my buddy, my good friend.

I don't want you to pin a high hope on me.

I don't want let you think that, I'm with the rest of the gals you have met b4 the same.

I do not want that.

I know i should just leave this house maybe that the way.

I don't know whether you understand one thing.

We have been friends for so long, 10 years Buddy!

It 10 years you know, and how many 10 years can we have?

Okes, ermx...or maybe i can accept you as being a probation bf, and i don't really totally agree that.

I still stay here.

Does not mean that once I'm with you, i will move out.

Even if one day, i really move out of this house, i don't think i will the courage to accept a new relationship.

Bcos you are my good friend.

I want to have a bf and this BF must be must be my future Hubby.

I don't wanna waste my time to hang with someone and the end no more bye bye.

I don't know how the future like and i really really afraid.

I'm so stress now.

I just wanna tell you that, do not pin a high hope on me, bcos the more you put in, the more disappointed you are getting.

Bcos i don't understand myself that what do i really want.

I can now like telling you okes, i think we should try, but the next moment i can like ermx, i don't think so.

I will just like stop there and think no not this way.

How should i do now?

I don wanna bcos of me makes you so sad.

You just recovery from her.

And now me.

I can accept the one who love me but at the same time i must have the one who love me that stay in my heart.

I cannot with a someone that i don keep in my heart bcos it like I'm wasting his time and mine.
Buddy, there are a lots of guys friends and i lost them.
Like Shin, Max, Ivan and others. I lost them totally.
And bcos i know you for so long, i do not wish to lose you.
Even for Mark, he is getting lesser contact with me as he know he will fall for me.
Argh, I hate mySELF!

It Christmas

2009-12-26T07:19:00.001+08:00

24 Dec 2009, Thursday.

It Eve of Christmas.

I meeting my buddy on the bus 16 and went to cini there to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2

You guys should catch it to watch.

After the movie we went to have our dinner at Pastamania.

I had a chicken ceaser salad as i not so that hungry..

After dinner we took bus no 111 down to esplanade...

We walk to the Merlion there to sit and chit chat.

Zephkiel was out with his friends to pub there.

After that I'm feeling very that sleepy and we walked to boat quay there to take cab home.

Buddy send me home 1st then he go back to his camp.

25 Dec 2009, Friday.

It Christmas

I went back to see my grandpa as my mom sms me that he not feeling well ask me to go down to see him. I actually wanna go see my grandma but grandpa is important so i went down to see him 1st.

After that knowing my grandpa feeling okes liao, then i took cab to geyland bahru there to look for my grandma.

Grandma again gave me a pair of shoes as she said she wear the shoes will pain so i try and i think i can wear so i say okes.

After that grandma bring me to see my uncle.

My uncle always move house de...dk in a year move how many times like that..Lolx.

As usual la, he staying condo de.

His house look good la.

I like it...Haha.

Yea, same thing, everytime i go back, my grandma will ask me, When u getting marry?

And when i reach my uncle there, he also asked me a same question.

>.<

Aiyo, i do even have a Mr Right yet how to leh?...

Lolx.

After sitting some time, we went to have our dinner at bugis, having Japanese dinner.

Okes lo, the dinner not bad la.

Hmmm, i very full wor after eating ice cream.

Yummy, wanna go there again. Lolx.

Then shop awhile nia then back to my small gugu place.

I feeling sleepy so rest at my cousin's room.

Zephkiel msg me asked when i coming home so i ask him to come and fetch me la.

Hahax.

Hmmm, he came and fetch me and i went home, had a bath and dk wad time i fall sleep de...Anyway, I had a not so bad and not so Christmas as i feeling not that happy bcos of myself.

Don wanna blog liao...Lazy.

Ciao..

Christmas EvE

2009-12-24T11:53:00.001+08:00

21 Dec 2009, Monday.

I was taking my leave so resting at home.

At evening, Went out with Zephkiel and his Family to PS there to buy Iphone.

Thiers are Starhub so must go that area...

Same as usual that the waiting time 3hours plus lo.

Zephkiel and his dad getting the Iphone.

So while waiting we went to eat and have coffee and then back to there waiting again.

Reach home 11plus liao le.

I'm so tired lo.

Zephkiel was doing the setting for his new phone lo.

Bcos of him keep asking me Q, i slept around 1plus like that.

22 Dec 2009, Tuesday.

So tired bcos of not enough sleep.

It was the day for PSLE pupils to come and collect their leaving certificate.

Ok lo, not so busy.

It was also the day i realized that my thumb drive was Mia.

By the time i going to knock off then i realized it.

So sian and so sad cos all my hardworks inside the thumb ma...

23 Dec 2009, Wednesday.

Reach office one thing is to find my thumb.

Still cannot find so very sad la.

Then i apply leave on next tuesday which is 29 Dec.

I just apply and got the signature from the Vp lo.

Msg my Am but she nv reply my msg...Sian.

Went to Tbp after to wash off the stain on my nose and do some more to my eyes there.

Then go adjust my tian Zhu lo cos i don want wear two ma...so must as well make it as one will do.

Bought burgers for Zephkiel and myself at Mcdonald.

Went home and then prepare dinners for my dogs...

Zephkiel keep spy at my phone.

He was so interested that what really happened between and my buddy.

I let him read my email lo...and he still got like Q n A sia.

WTF.

I slept around 10plus i think.

That Baka So late then sleep.

He waking me up around 2plus cos he too noisy liao.

Then i back to sleep also.

24 Dec 2009, Thursday.

Waking up almost like 6plus then quickly go bathe liao if not sure late ..

Then prepare breakfast for Yozai.

Then bring him to work...

Hahax.

Everybody like to see him...

Cos he is so cute.

And i found my Thumb.

It all the long in my drawer.

Hahaha.

Thanks God.

I know it your singnal to ask me to flip up the box.

I know you have forgive me.

It between me and God will know.

Right now ...I'm blogging at office la.

And then i going off soon..Still got 45mins...

So Happy.

So i will be back to work on next Wednesday.

HAHAx...

A very long Weekend rest for me...

So later in the evening i will be meeting my buddy to catch a movie...

Then after that maybe going to Esplanade ba...

See how...

Anyway...Ciao...